Chapter 1
"Would you like to have a cup of coffee with me?"
"Ah, I see why not" I said and my friend who sat nearby gives a startling look as I've history of declining his requests.
To pretend that I'm not easy type
"Can you give me 2 minutes?" I asked her.
"Yeah, sure, I will wait over at the reception" She replied.
I am not sure how and what I gonna fill with the two minutes and I randomly browsed screen in my laptop and my friend still haven't turned away his look from me.
"I will be back soon" and I get up and move without turning and acknowledging his questioned look.
She was standing there at the reception checking something on her phone.
"We can go"
"Yeah"
"Where do you want me to take?"
"As long as you pay and return back me within 5pm, I'm okay with your suggestion"
"Alright, busy guy, let's go downstairs 3rd Floor, if that's okay"
"Yeah, sure"
We took the stairs and I asked her
"Seems you're out of company today?"
"Yeah, everyone is off today, it's lonely out there"
"You should've left earlier today"
"Hmm, yeah, but I don't think my boss approves"
"Who accompanied you in the lunch?"
"I'd it alone"
"Ah, sorry, I didn't knew you were alone, otherwise I would've called you"
"Nah, it's okay"
"I sense something not okay in you"
"Ah, it's nothing"
"Alright, I got a bunch of problems with myself. If anyone, asked me to share, I probably say the same, so I respect"
"It's not like that"
"Okay, okay cool"
We reached the cafe and she asked
"What do you like to like to have?"
"How about some Fig shake for me"
She ordered the same for herself and she turned back.
"I breakup with my boyfriend recently, so"
"Oh, okay, I'm sorry"
"It's okay, it's good anyway"
"I know it's quite hard for you"
"Actually, when I'm engaged with something or with my friends, I don't think about it. When I was put alone, I'd this thoughts stirring up inside"
"Hmm, okay, it would be alright soon, don't worry"
"It's not about that, I had lots of expectation on him and he failed, so I just don't wanna talk about it"
"Alright, cool, cool. I really don't know how to convince in such situations. what I can really say is Everything is for good"
"Hmm, thank you"
We'd our juice and we went to a table.
"How come you're still single?" She asked.
"Ah, well that's a question. For starters, I'm too lazy"
"Lazy?!"
"I want to get laid, but I don't really try for that to happen"
She laughed.
"Yeah, that's how it is"
"What do you on weekends?" She asked.
"I stay at home, avoid people contact as much as I could. Reading books, watching movies, playing games"
"You are such a dork" She interrupted.
"I don't know, may be, that's what makes me happier"
"Hmm, I really hate to stay in home during weekends, it makes me mad"
"What's your dream?" I asked her.
"Dream, you mean some ambitions right?. Actually during childhood, I used to say, I want to become a doctor. At the time, I don't know it feels like, if we say something like that, everyone applaud us and we feels like we will become a doctor. Later I only realized, it was something we just made up, maybe picked up from someone"
I nodded and she continued.
"As time progress, I tend to have different aims and again it got faded. Now in a position, where I really don't feel like I should've some ambition. Can we just live without any?"
"You're quite interesting. What was you said philosophical?"
"You mean the crap I just said?"
"Well, yes, I read a lot, I can vouch what you said was something not many people decipher it."
"I don't know whatever. Out of curious, what's yours?"
"Well, that's a question. I don't know If I can answer in straight forward. I've many things in my mind which I want to experience once, from having sex to travel back to time. There are many. Some might be achievable and some I don't know. But it's good to have though. Even if it's not happening, I will be able to accept that as I've many such."
"I'm listening"
"Hey, well that's it."
"No, it's great, I like to hear more about that."
"What?"
"You should speak a lot. I know you're reserved. But when you open, you're just widening everything, many people doesn't have such perspectives"
"It's quite flattering. Thank you" I said.
"You're always welcome. Whenever you want to talk about something, you just call me."
"I'm very much grateful. There are lot's of people actually said this and I don't know what I do, but people likes me for some reason. That's really good."
"Yeah, you should engage more"
"Sure, I will try."
"Hmm, it's getting late I guess. We should better back to work"
"Yeah, let's go, thanks for the juice by the way"
"Hey, come on, just don't be so formal."
"Alright, okay okay"
We just moved up through the stairs in silence.
And for some reason, journey seems to be continuing and we're not arriving to our floor. Steps are going infinitely. She is walking like she didn't notice this.
Even my feet are climbing continuously despite my mind knows that I'm going through a loop.
I tried to speak, I couldn't.
I
I tried to stop myself, I couldn't.
I
I tried to turn around, I couldn't.
I
I really don't know what's happening. Spacetime is acting really weird for me this time.
And at the time, I'd this crazy notion. What if I kiss her, will I be able to come out of this loop?
Well, that's absurd. I'd this reverse thought.
Desperate times, desperate measures.
I convinced myself.
Really?, the other half of me questioned to myself.
Notion can be true sometimes and there is purpose for every action. Even the thought of kissing her came to me for some purpose.
I convinced myself.
"That's stupid and obvious philosophy." Other half of me countered.
"Alright, you're hopeless. You can't do anything. You know that, You suck".
I said to myself.
"You know what, let's do it. We've nothing to lose" Other half of me agreed to it.
I
I
And I kissed her very quick and she slapped in return.
Thank God, I'm out of loop now.
