Victory or loss
“ i have no idea how you survived such a fall ?”
Hey my names max. Nothing more than that. Im 17 and this is my second attempt in ending it all.
People say its fate i say is the devil himself. They go ‘oh its fine yourll escape this dark tunnel ‘ but for fuck sake Shut up ! Ive tried for years to end it but no matter what i do or say everyones just feels bad for me. Yea ill admit my lifes shit but that doesnt matter. Some say i wont even live up to 20.and thats good. Why because i dont even think my own girlfriend likes me i mean yea i poposed but i know shes wishing she had never met me.
But here i am laying down on hospital bed wishing i wasn’t awake right now. Once the doctors left violet came up mascara running down covered in blood. Her eyes where blood shot like she’d been crying and hadnt slept in days . Maybe this was my fault but she didnt have to look so fucking pissed! She looks like she was about to beat me to death (except id allow it).
“ What the fuck was you thinking?” She yelled as she sat at the end of the bed.she was gonna say something but didnt .
“ it doesn’t matter.” I mumbled
“ it so fucking does ?! Does that ring even mattet to you ?” I look at my hand and see the diamond.
I dont say anything.
Violet just keeps yelling about how im selfish or whatever i was to busy thinking of how i should end it next. Well the Cliff wasn’t enough nor the gun. Well with that I chickened out but if violet keeps going then she’d definitely take the ring back.
“ Answer me for fuck sake ?!” I just rolled over and looked out the window .” MAX?!” She shouted at me and i bolted up and nearly ripped the life support out of my hand nearly holding back a painful scream.
Clutching my hand i open my mouth to speak when my phone pings i go to grab it but violet slams her hand down .
ANSWER ME…
and that was the day i snapped. I didnt i just got up and slapped her across the face and she walked out.
“ fuck …” i look at my phone and ive got a message from camp. Its 17 pictures of my beautiful baby girl one for each day and tomorrow marks her last day. I could of jumped with joy but i had to wait until i could be let out witch with my chances could never happen. My phone pings again and its a message from micheal my face lights up as I hurriedly message back. After all he is the farther to my baby girl.
Hey babe you ok?
Yeah
Whats up?
Nothing really just in hospital
What why?
...
Its ok if you don't want to tell me I understand
No its not that i jumped from violet hill
When?
Like three days ago ...
right ...
its fine at least we can pick up sam tomorrow!
Wont we get weird looks ?
Why?
Your like 17 and im well 19
Baby its fine!
I love it when you call me that <3
Shush it bottom bear
Alright teddy
He sends a winky face and we leave it at that.
Man i love him so much. Weird how i almost fell for violet. Shes a younger nieve girl. A girl at best. I knew a girl once but she lest before i could watch the lorax why are we talking about the lorax so random. Like my life.
Violets Definitely a character. She has long staight black hair, purple contacts ( she’s actually a hitlers girl) she has hundreds of this one black skull t-shirt and black skinny jeans. She was my dream girl but those rusty ass dc martins suck balls( which explains alot).
I feel angry i fell for her. Im angry she commented on my stomach and my stetch marks. Well this is what you look like after youve had a child whitch wouldn’t surprise me me how you dont know that! Im suprise how shes not pregnant yet.
I stop my angry thoughts as a doctor walks in with a giant bag and some balloons.
“ word got around then !” I joke as they sets it down next to me and sit on the bed.
“ welp max. Ive lost count of how many times youve been here. But you are free to go amd here-“ they then hand me a card and a small box.
“ thanks!” I say as i take it from their hands.
“ my number should be inside the card incase you have a medical emergency. Also why did you name your daughter after me?”
“ what sam ? Donno guess i just liked it plus your only like 24, but youve helped me so much so thank you.”
“ your welocme. Also its very rude to say someone’s age out!” She jokes and hugs me”
“ dont worry ill be back in like 9 months ! Make sure though you always keep this room free just in case!”
“ you better not! And yes ill try my best. I cam also make it your own private sweet - a few upgrades and its be your third home!” We laugh
“ well dont keep me waiting open it!”
“ ok!”
