the , wolf's woman .

Women can’t be trusted but I trust you ,

Love is madness , and I love you .

In the beginning I was unsure about you ,

wasted a lot of time over-thinking whether this , whether that

Whether this woman would fit my standard .

I was looking for comfort , but someone open-minded .

But over a period of many times I saw you .

Until fellowship , in light of Christ,

Your skin was so vivid and so bright ! , and like you - so young and vibrant! , and with your smile , you blew my eyes with your glory .

Almost thought that you were the sun .

With my head in the clouds in the clouds ,

I was taken by your beauty .

I pulled you aside like you were a wandering dove, and caged you within my worldview ,

then I walked you home , but I was actually leading you towards my heart .

We talked but you were always so distant , but still I pursued, and I ran for you .

I was patient and I pursued , even when you made things awkward , and even being embarrassed -publicly , but still ! , I stayed, to learn more about you , people could see I was failing , but still ! , I stayed , and tolerated your mood swings and your mixed emotions .

You told me your story - that you were abused , misused and mistreated ,

But you survived , and I could see it in those eyes , so big , so bright , so Beautiful , and Blue ...

I knew from then on , to be very very careful with you ,

And no man , nor person would ever swindle with you .

While I live , I will ! , forever love you .

But still you were distant and difficult , yet I still pursued .

What did I want ?? - still I was unsure about you .

But then I looked at you , again , again and again , like looking at a painting over and over , again , again , and again .

AND OH GOD ! , I was TAKEN - AGAIN !! .

We talked one time , and you understood culture , music , Hollywood and movies .

I was taken and I wanted comfort .

With no friends in Kitwe , Zambia - but well acquainted , you became my only friend ,

My girlfriend .

Over the phone you were still distant ,

Even face to face , I still couldn’t see you ,

I was upset , and I would always ask , WHATS WRONG !??

….

So I threw my phone , to be alone .

But still i stayed .

I broke you , and made you cry , but you don’t even know how many times before I slept and prayed , how much I would cry .

You said I hurt you , why didn’t you tell me , instead on the day we break off you make it known and even hate me .

Then there was one time we touched , and like the fresco painting of The Creation of Adam - of the 1500s , by Artist Michelangelo ;

Philosophy in my view and Christianity in your view - my babe ,

You make my world .

Know thyself , and who are you ?? , I believe I’m the the reason you now ask , who am I ??

See I know you better than you do ;

You’re an Artist and Sensitive , and an

Actor with character ,

Socially awkward , but I think it’s kinda cute ,

Crazy and Destructive , but you still Love

Blue .

I visited CABU because of you ,

I wolfed ! the library to understand you ,

Went to Kitwe Church for you , took a turn to Faith Baptist Church to get to know you .

Went to UCZ , Mormon and even Catholic too ,

Prayed and knelt down , OH GOD ! , I didn’t know what to do .

But in all that I read the Bible for myself ,

Took myself to church ,

Prayed and prayed , fellowship and the like,

but still , I asked questions.

So who do you say I am to you ? ,

Your friend or the wolf! ? .

And Who do I say he was ? ,

A man , a Guide and an Artist .

So for him please excuse yourself ,

For her - my babe , please come home into my arms and fulfill my heart - that’s not there .

My family thinks I’m thinks I’m selfish ,

You think I’m greedy ,

and even at times , I think I’m a little self centered ;

Egocentric .

…

But I’m the wolf ! from the Kabin (Cabin) ,

and even as the wolf! among Lambs , you humbled me ,

and even as the wolf! among Sheep , you can still trust me .

But ! , as the wolf!, I must be Wary ,

and as the wolf! , I must protect my Women .

For my babe ! … I would kill ! ,

an Oxen ,

a Buffalo ,

a Red Hartebeest Antelope,

a Ram ,

a Mountain Goat,

and a chicken !!! .

And drag all this relish to the wolf’s Kabin , made of fine , different and eclectic types of woods , get the wolf’s women to prepare an exotic meal for you - my babe .

Find you seated in the Newly - Renaissance - Styled design living room with the chimney chain-smoking during noon ,

Lose myself in your eyes ,

and your skin , like the eyes of a Cheetah , and feed you like you were Queen Margherita .

Und das alles - Le Coeur .

WEIL ICH DICH LIEBE .