I'm tired of writing love stories
I am sick of writing sappy romances. In no way does any of this speak to me. As far as I can tell, the entire world has evolved. I can not think of the last time I went on a blind date or met someone where it immediately felt like there was nothing between us but the two of us.
I remember being an innocent teenager who felt it in her heart that she wouldn't be complete without the man in her life. Well, she's wrong. You won't complete each other. You won't change for the better, because she's the one for you. You change because you look at the possibilities in this world and imagine that life is nothing without her by your side.
Many people know about love and the desire to be loved. Love comes in many forms and when you look at the world around you, the smiles and laughter of many are a sight to behold. I am tired of writing love stories and their intricacies, but it is through the love we share with people that we create magic.
When I was young, I thought that love was just like in the movies. The sparks, the chemistry, and the tension. No, love isn't that way, and that is harder for many people to grasp. What is commitment? What does it mean to stay together until we are old and gray? I know now what love was from the beginning. Love is more than a fleeting emotion; it is a choice.
When you love someone, love hard for the world is filled with pain. You wake up every morning with a smile on your face because you choose to love the person you have become and the partner you prayed for. Love doesn't have to be romantic; friendship is healing. Talking and laughing with someone while eating together at the table. Strong, deep, and intimate conversations that could rule the world in our eyes.
This is an ode to all of my past traumas and lessons. May they continue to help me grow as a person and teach me to be a better person. Behind a person who is secure and happy, I can't imagine the wounds of the past that she has to overcome. It's like looking at myself in the mirror and being reminded of who I was back then. I may not like writing about sappy romances, but I hope the love that I prayed for will come at the right time and may it bloom where it was meant to be planted.
