Hope Sper
What is with this world? Everyone is mad and sad about unimportant things, like the world is black, white. It is not even fun to be here and seeing people get mad at you because you are happy. ‘Hopey!’ Oh God. No, I hate that nickname so bad, but it is my mother, she calls me “Hopey”, or she calls me her "Honey” I turn my head around and see my mother in the car smiling at me with my little brother in the back waving at me. ‘Hello mom.’ I smile at her, ‘hey honey. Can you be home alone for two weeks.’ ‘Excuse me? Two weeks? Mom!’ I yell while everyone is looking at me. ‘Dear, don't embarrass yourself!’ She slaps me. ‘Mom, why?’ ‘I do not want you to yell at me because I can yell louder. You will be home alone for two weeks cause dad and me are busy plus your little brother, you cannot even babysit a babydoll so he will be with us.’ She smiles. Seriously my own mother thinks she can leave her teenage daughter to be alone. ‘No parties.’ She speaks. ‘Mom, where do you see friends?’ ‘Or yes, have parties I do not want my daughter to be friendless for her rest of her life. Love you.’ She blows a kiss and drives away. My entire day is ruined by her comment about me, her daughter not having any friends and that I am home alone for two freaking weeks! Ugh! Why only me. {In class} ‘Good morning, everyone!’ The teacher stands up and writes something on the board and oh God. I was right this day is already ruined. On the board it says (Find a person to work with. You can be with 2, 3 of even 4 people. Goodluck.) Thank you, Mrs. Yurs, for good lucking me. But no, none wants me. I look at everyone and....Everyone has a partner. ‘Mrs. Sper, you can do it alone if you want or join with Mr. Kikes and his friends.’ ‘No! We do not want her!’ They shout and everyone laughs. Wow, Karl can diss someone for real and not use any “your mom” or “none wants you cause...” Jokes. I look at him with a serious face and I want to punch and pull that face of that piece of shit. Look at that smile. Just want to pull that face and give him a face of a cow. Again, this is the... 47th time that I work alone. Again. This class is toxic I want to be in a different class even the nerd got chosen and not me. Even the emo kid. Everyone is chosen except me. I am that bad. ‘Mrs. Sper, can I talk to you for a second?’ God I will throw this teacher out of the window if she complains again about trying to get friends or make one. I walk with her outside and she fake smiles at me and I give that fake smile of me back. ‘I know, it is not easy to make friends but-’ I cut her off. “Mrs. Yurs, I know but I do not want to be friends with this toxic class and for the fourth time let me go to a different classroom. I beg you. Like going to class 3HB I beg you miss.’ ‘I am so sorry, but I cannot do that, but you, could talk to the principal. I do not have any right to move you class to class.’ I sigh and nod at her. We walk to the classroom everyone was looking at me and that boy. I swear to God. ‘What did she say? No friends?’ He laughs with his friends. I sigh and walk to my seat when he tripped me. I had it enough, I stand up and take a classmate their writing book and throw it at his face. Everyone looked at me and this boy had a nosebleed, that book was lighter than any books here in this classroom. ‘Mrs. Sper to the principal!’ ‘Why? This book is lighter than other books! He did this to himself!’ I yell but the teacher pulled me out of the classroom and walked me to the principal office. ‘Miss, that book is not even heavy!’ I yell. ‘Tell that to the principal and not me. I am done with this behavior!’ ‘Miss!’ I yell after she opened the door and held me so hard that my shoulder was a little bit red. ‘Mr. Holler, this girl her behavior isn't right, she threw a book to a student and that student has now a nosebleed.’ She let me go. ‘Thank you, you, sit here. Thank you, Mrs. Yurs.’ I walk to the chair and sit there without any word. Everyone fears the principal, and I understand he is angry when you do those actions, but it was right of me. He was bullying me. My actions were right that piece of shit deserved it. ‘Young lady, why?’ I look at him, okay so I have two options, cry or lie. ‘Mr. Holler, he was bullying me. I told Mrs. Yurs to move me from this class because they do not want me there, they hate me. I am trying to be friends with them, but they say words that hurt me. I was complaining everything to Mrs. Yurs, but she does not listen to me, her answer was “tell the principal that.” But I do not have time for that, I have homework, projects, and other things.’ I wipe my tears away, ‘Karl is the worst bully, he was bullying me, and my life is ruined, no one is helping me. So, I acted, but I know, you will tell me that I am suspended for I do not know how long cause this is against the school rule. I am so sorry but that was my only action mister.’ I wipe my tears again. Oh my God, I can cry good, I should be in a movie. ‘Mrs. Sper. I will not suspend you; I know how you feel. When I was your age, I did that too. So, I will forgive you this time but if Karl acts like this again you know where I am. Tell me everything he did to you and that action of you. But wow, I never thought you would do that. You are the quiet girl, I am impressed.’ He smiles at me; I look at him and smile back. ‘But nice acting, those tears weren't real.’ My smile dropped and he laughed. ‘Thank you for being here and if you do not want to be in that class you have three options: Class 2AB, class 6KL or class 5SD. You can come here back and choose. ‘Oh my God thank you. But can I go to class 3HB?’ I ask, ‘no.’ He smiles, I thank him again and leave the office. That was mean of him saying no but I am happy that I can move class to class cause finally, for one year getting away from this toxic class. I knock on the door of my classroom. ‘Come.’ The teacher said, when I opened the door, everyone was surprised. ‘How can this fucking piece of shit that gave me a fucking nosebleed escape from the angry principal? How can he forgive her? Why? Miss!’ Oh, look who is crying that the principal forgave me. I give him the middle finger and he does not like that. ‘Pussy boy, crying over a book.’ I turn around and it is Heather, the top student of 3HB, I love her, she does not care if she breaks your heart but if she knows you then, she is sorry but not for Karl. She hates Karl. She gives me a high-five. ‘If he acts like this, throw a chair at his shit head please, and record it too. I will make it popular. Pussy boy.’ She walks away and laughs. ‘Miss!’ Karl yells at the teacher, but the teacher giggled because it is true this Karl is a pussy boy, he acts tough but if you fight him, he will cry like a baby until someone calms him down and says sorry to him. {Home} We did all the things and Karl and I still hate each other but I do not really care about that boy. I am surprised that the principal forgave me because he did the same when he was my age but still. I open the door. ‘I am ho-’ I yell but I remember. I am home alone for two weeks. How can you forget that Hope. I run to the kitchen trying to find some food I walk to the fridge when something was on the counter. A note. I look at it, it says: • Hello, my beautiful daughter, you know you will be alone for two weeks and sorry for that 🙁 we hope you will not get mad at us for this. So, mom and I gave you some money, 4,500 dollars, I know you do not want that much but you are my princess. • Love dad 💗- I smile at the money and at the note, 4,500 dollars are too much for me, I do not like spending so much money so I will try my best to have 2,250 dollars over. Actually... I do not know but I hope I will not lose or spill the money over something that I do not need. I walk to the couch with chips, chocolate, popcorn, and some soda plus water if my mouth cannot manage this sweetness anymore. I watch some romantic movies and, ‘I feel single.’ Those words came out of my mouth, and it is true. But why am I single, am I the bad lady here or something. ‘Hope please shut up and watch some movies without being romantic.’ I talk to myself and choose some comedy to watch with my single ass. The movie was so bad that I felt asleep, it was not even funny. My phone was ringing, I woke up from the noise, why is someone calling me it is 7pm, but with my smart ass and lazy ass I do not stand up to pick my phone up from the table that is one foot from me. ‘Why cannot I have powers, ugh. I will wait until this person stops calling me with his dumbass, calling me on a Friday 4pm, Saturday let me rest! Not even close to Saturday but leave me alone!’ I scream at my phone. The ringing stops but 3 seconds later my phone rings. ‘Maybe it could be my mother or father.’ I say and run to the table. I pick my phone and who is this person. (01040) Do I know this person? Who is this person and why cannot I see the number of this person because this is creepy. Oh my God, why do not I have any friends. Who need me to call when someone breaks in or does something to me even my parents ignore my calls. Even important calls. God! Who is this person! Oh my God. I sit on the table and wait until this person stops but no it is ringing, ringing, ringing, and ringing. Enough. I pick the phone, but I kept a promise for myself to not talk to the unknown number. ‘Hello.’ Fuck Hope what did I tell you dumbass! Nobody answers until I hear. Something.
