.
We're joking.
We're laughing.
We're happy.
We're happy?
We can't be happy.
I can't be happy.
I don't deserve to be happy?
That's not it.
I have no reason to be happy?
No.
Then why?
Do I even want to be happy?
I've never been happy
I can't be happy.
What would happen if I was?
Who would I be then?
Who even am I now?
Just unhappy?
What would be left of me without it?
It's what I'm known for.
It's what I'm used to
It's all that I am.
