Disappear

Hello, it’s me. I know it is too late to say now. It has been 5 months since you have disappeared from my life. I still remember the first time I saw you - long silky black hair, running for work. Then you bumped into me. I got very angry. As I was about to say something, you apologized again and again for a couple of times. You started running again. The best memory of us is when we both went on a picnic date and brought our own cooked foods. That time, your magical laugh made me forget about everything around me. Time to time, I find myself smiling.

I remember rushing to work once. When I came home and removed my socks, you burst out laughing. I asked you what was so funny. You told me to look down, and when I did, I also started laughing. One time, you scolded me for not paying attention to the food, and I burned it. We ended up having mac and cheese for dinner. I had missed my lunch, and I broke a glass. That’s when I realized that I have a lot of flaws, and you’ve been the remedy for my shortcomings. Honestly, I don’t know what I could have done without you.

The flowers in the vase are starting to dry, and I don’t feel like changing them. I haven’t touched those books; you told me not to mess with them, and I am keeping that promise. I forgot my lunch today. If you were here, you would have said, ‘Honey, you can’t even do that. Now I have to put a reminder clock around your neck that says it is time for lunch.’ Don’t worry about me; I am doing well. Please give a sign if you are doing well up there.

I am trying to learn your scrambled egg recipe. It’s not perfect, but I am trying it from memory. If you can, please send me your recipe. I miss our morning routine. The house looks empty when I come home. You showed me light when I was trying to find it in the darkness. I don’t regret any bit of time I spent with you. If I had the chance, I would do it again. Let’s meet in heaven.