The math teachers pet

The worst lesson ever

It was the start of another painful Thursday period 5 lesson for me. It shouldn't have been as I should have been happy but my bullies made me unhappy with myself and I now have the lowest self-esteem ever.

"Okay start Brain in Gear week 4 please," Mr Wesley said every time someone came into the classroom.

I liked how his soft voice filled the air and he could tell me to get on with Brain in Gear as many times as he liked and I wouldn't get bored but then my tormentors walked in everyone cowered in their seats.

The ringleader was Hunter Mayhew. He was 5 foot 11 but claimed to be 6 foot. No one ever called him out because they were afraid of what Hunter could do. There were 3 of his mates in my math class. The first of his mates called Kyle who sat on the other side of the classroom was the first to walk in and give me a forced smile. The 2nd of Hunter's mates walked in straight after Kyle his name was Connor and he sat 2 rows in front of me. He also gave me a forced smile.

I knew that once I got all 4 forced smiles they were going to make my life a living hell. Then, Hunter's final mate showed up. His name was Trent and he was the second in command. He sat in the vacant seat next to me. I hated my seating plan with a passion. Trent gave me the 3rd forced smile. Then Hunter walked in and he was pretty gangsta for a boy his age then he gave that final forced smile and my fate was sealed. Then I had a flashback to the first time the bullying started.

*Flashback to the first lesson it happened*

"So Maddie, how are you?" said Hunter turning around.

"I'm fine thanks for asking and you?" I said then I regretted the "And you?" as soon as it left my mouth.

"Oh I'm Better now," said Hunter he gave a forced smile to Connor, Trent and Kyle and they started on me.

They teased me by calling me names like nerd and smarty pants. I was so upset that they had started on me that by the end of that lesson, I was at a loss for words. I was being bullied and it fucking hurt like hell. Not cool.

*Present Day*

Then I was snapped back to the present day by a voice which said, "Hey Maddie".

I looked confused being drawn back to reality and suddenly Hunter had eyes on me

"Hi Hunter,'' I said calmly then Hunter looked at Trent

"How's your mum coping with your panic attacks?" Hunter asked me

"Wh-at panic attacks -" I shakily asked

"Oh I saw you having one last week after incidents 1 and 2," Hunter said looking at me.

Yes that's right I had a panic attack suddenly last week and now I started having another one my heart started racing like mad.

Then I started feeling faint, started sweating for England, started feeling sick in the pits of my stomach, pain in my chest and shortness of breath. Then I started trembling, getting hot flashes and chills then I got shaky limbs and a choking sensation then I started to feel dizzy, got pins and needles and a dry mouth I also felt the need to go to the toilet, ringing in my ears, I felt a feeling of dread then my stomach churned and my fingers tingle. I was feeling like I was not connected to my body. Oh no.

Then 5 minutes later my panic attack went away and suddenly everyone was staring then a girl called Emma who sat near me turned to me but at the same time Trent turned to me.

"Come on talk to me-" Trent said over Emma who said, "Did you find anybody,?"

Then I said, "Leave me alone" That was meant for Trent but then I heard.

"How dare you I was trying to be nice!" Said Emma.

I tried to protest I wasn't talking to her but I couldn't as I became flustered. I couldn't get my words out at all.

Then I felt like I was going to hit a wall until Mr Wesley stopped the commotion. Then things just went downhill from there.

"Soo.. I know you want me to leave you alone but I just can't," said Hunter.

Then Connor looked at Kyle and Kyle eventually screwed something up in his clammy fists and then when Mr Wesley turned around to face us he threw it bullseye it landed on my desk Mr Wesley turned back around and tutted then I read the note:

Hello Maddie I know you want to be left alone to answer this question. Why?

I decided to leave it on my desk and not answer it since I was not going to play ball. I was going to throw it in the bin. Connor turned around and looked at Hunter

"OI" Hunter yelled at me, then I looked at him.

"Yes?" I said calmly.

"Why are you being so rude?" Hunter replied.

"I'm not being rude I just don't want to talk!" I said raising my voice a little

"Well done then I can't even talk to you little mute!" Hunter replied.

My hands turned into fists and something bubbled inside of me.

Then I just suddenly yelled, "STOP IT WILL YOU! I HAVE ASKED TO BE LEFT ALONE!"

Then the entire class stopped what they were doing and stared at me. Then Mr Wesley came over as I put my head on the desk

"Look up," Mr Wesley said. I kept my head on the desk then I lifted my head, stood up clutching my fists and stormed out of the classroom the door slammed loudly SLAM I had never done that before. I stood outside and could see Mr Wesley yelling at the class. I didn't know what he was yelling.

I was outside of the classroom for a good 5 minutes. Mr Wesley probably wanted me to calm down so I didn't hurt anyone and I was probably going to hurt someone with my anger.

He finally came out of the classroom and said, "Maddie, can you stay behind after the lesson?".

"Um, sure can sir," I said. Then I was invited back into the classroom but was given a few unfriendly looks by others. Then everyone left and that lesson was the worst lesson ever and now I had to describe it to Mr Wesley.