Is It Worth Losing Everything | + 18

When I pictured my life, I never imagined what my life would've been like if I had never fucked up so badly that it ended my four-year relationship.

You did yourself a favor, Rayeleigh.

Did I, though?

It was his fault.

Aiden fucking Montgomery.

I hate him with every bone in my body. He is the reason so much of the fucked up shit that happened in just one year. It was supposed to be the best year of my life, but it happened to be the worst.

The only two things that came out of that year were my 3-month-old twins.

Malaysiah and Micah.

They're my whole world.

Now, you may be asking me so many questions. Let me just tell you what my life is like right now.

Like I said, I have three-month-old twins, so yes, I got pregnant last summer.

The summer before my life became a soap opera. It felt like a big fat slap in the fucking face for me.

It showed me how well you think you know one person you once loved.

Aiden and I were together for four years before I found out the biggest secret he was keeping from me.

I get to go to the family gatherings as I am now not only his ex-girlfriend, but I am now his niece and nephew's mother.

Yes, you heard me. I am now with his good-looking, smart as fuck, and the complete opposite of him, his twin brother, Austin. The older one is the smarter one, remember that.

Knowing what my life is like now, I don't think I could ever change anything. Yes, I fucked up, but he fucked up worse.

I have to rebuild relationships because of him. I dislike him so much. It's hate that you can't run away from.

I can't show my frustrations with him because well, you can imagine the heartbreak I've experienced after I found out the secrets he decided to keep from me for years --- they came to light after I slept with his brother, Austin.

My life was perfect…until it wasn't. I thought I'd marry Aiden, but he decided to break me. Break me into many fucking pieces.

Something I couldn’t forgive. I thought I was in love, but our whole relationship was a lie. I hate to admit that if I didn’t sleep with Austin, I’d be in so much denial.

Still being lied to, and cheated on and everything was kept from me for years.

For you to understand everything, I'm going to have to take you back to that summer.

The summer when my life came crumbling down around me all at once while becoming a mother at just eighteen to twins.