Nov, 2024
I've been losing myself, loving someone who would never fit. Gaslit my own heart, trying convincing it.
Tried to spark a fire that could never exist, but love’s not built like this.
We were tangled in a love that wasn’t true, I gave you my heart, but it was never meant for you.
Breaking up barely hurt, there was nothing to say. It’s my fault. I waited a year and a half to see, the spark’s there from the start or it never will be.
I gave him my all, tried to make him feel whole. Lost myself, while love slipped from my soul. He’s a good guy, but not my lover. It was overdue to get this over.
Now there’s someone new, and he’s all I see. Made me giggle all day, he made me feel like me. So scared how perfect, we both agree.
It’s too much, too fast, yet it’s all I need. The spark, its crazy, so fucking real. Talking for hours nonstop, the chemistry I feel.
Craving presence, hearts racing so fast. The tingles from the touch, a feeling that lasts.
Even in a room full of people, it’s just us two. It feels like home, where everything feels right- just perfect, like we were meant to unite.
I’d drop it all for him, no second thoughts, no game, I think he’s the one, not meeting him would have been a shame.
We laughed about his ex, how toxic she stayed, barely visited, left him stranded, dismayed. He’s touchy, needs someone close all the time, but she needed space, they never did align.
So I’m here, caught between wrong and right. One love fading, another ignites. But in the end, all I want to find, is someone who’ll love me back, heart and mind.
He doesn’t know he’s all I think of, no doubt. I dropped my current one, shut the whole world out. I’d do it again, for the chance to begin, but his heart is still hers. It’s not for me, tugs him back in.
I let go, but it still pulls me back. The thought of him, it’s a constant attack. I deserve more than a love that never grows. And she is all he knows.
Yet here I am, chasing something real- a love that’s genuine, a love I can feel. And though he’s still on my mind. I know it’s time, to stop holding on, to let go of what never was mine.
Now I’m out here searching for someone who sees the depth I crave, the love I need. A love that doesn’t leave me questioning why. A love that’ll lift me up, makes me feel high.
