I Don’t Remember The Last Time

I don’t remember the last time.

I don’t remember the last time I smiled so big that my jaw started hurt.

I don’t remember the last time I laughed a real laugh.

I don’t remember the last I didn’t feel like I was dying inside.

I don’t remember the last time I smiled for real.

I don’t remember the last time I had that stupid childish crush.

I don’t remember the last time I didn’t feel self conscious.

I don’t remember the last time I trusted someone.

I don’t remember the last time I saw the world as good.

I don’t remember the last time I wasn’t tired.

I don’t remember the last time… I … was actually happy…