Chapter 1
Are you ready Api ?" [ Sister]Asked her helper while setting her bed
"Yes just a moment" she replied while fixing her diamond nose pin which was hardly visible
"If you are ,then please go and sit on your usual spot he's waiting for your glimpse afterall" she said pointing towards a table which was surrounded by 3 chairs against a glass window
Kinza left out a loud sigh before saying "if that wasn't my faouvrate spot I wouldn't even stand in that corner "
"Ohh c'mon apiyaa that poor boy stands there daily just for you glimpse from last 3 years and you don't even talk properly with him"
"That's the reason Daniya" she said getting up from the dressing table
"What reason ? "Asked Daniya
"Form 3 yeras he's behind me , before me he must've been behind someone and after some days he'll run behind someone else ." She replied rolling her eyes and sat on one of the chairs
"Kinza Api you know him for almost 3 years , do you think he's that kind of boy ? "
Kinza looked down from the glass window and saw him standing in the garden with his beautiful smile plastered on his face she turned her face and asked Daniya " I don't understand how guards allow him to enter the mansion , he even dodges the CCTV like what man my house seriously doesn't have an ounce of security "
Daniya just chuckled watching her state only she was aware of Kinza's majnu [ lover] who waits in the garden from 7am just to see her . She was done folding the blankets when they heard a knock on the door
"Come in" replied kinza
And there entered her choti Maa Iqra holding kinza's breakfast tray in her hand
"Come baccha[ Child ] your breakfast is ready " said Iqra with a very sweet smile
"How many times do I have to tell you not to enter in my room ?" Kinza asked calmly trying not to disrespect her
"I just came here to serve your breakfast baccha ," Iqra replied again in a very sweet voice
" Iqra Aunty I'll be very happy if you stop calling me that , please remember I am not your baccha , and this is the last time I am telling you , you will not bring my breakfast you know I don't disrespect food so stop taking advantage of that ." Kinza still replied calmly but her each and every word was sharp as tip of knife and she didn't regretted saying that .
Iqra nodded and kept the tray on the table and left from there
As soon as Iqra left kinza went to the otherside of the room which also had a small window with wooden texture which opened in hallway of 1st floor . From there she could clearly hear Iqra and her father Arasal's conversation
"Iqra if she doesn't want you to go in then please don't go there I can't let her disrespect you everytime but I cannot even say anything to her." Arsal said cupping iqra's face
"I know she is just upset with me , she dosen't hate me from her heart she just acts like that , and you don't have to interfere between a mother and her daughter we'll handle it" Iqra replied with a smile on her face and hugged Arsal
Kinza quickly closed the window with moist eyes , Iqra wasn't a very bad woman but kinza she could never love her she couldn't bring herself to accept Iqra as her mother because before her mother she'll always be her father's second wife and she hated that fact. She walked towards the table and gulped down the juice in one go and rushed out of the room.
Kinza entered the Dinning hall and saw her mother along with Arsal and Iqra sitting on the Dinning table, everyone except kinza always had their meals in Dinning hall, kinza joined them only for the dinner . She walked towards her mother's chair and sat beside her
"Assalam Walaikum Mama" she said smiling
"Walaikum Assalam Mera baccha " Safina replied her with the same energy " Did you take your breakfast?"
"Yes Mama I did " replied kinza ."Well Mama you remember I have a trip in 2 days ?"
"Yes baccha I do " Safina replied while eating her breakfast
"So Mama I want to go shopping with my friends to bring some essentials and clothes, and also my birthday is next week so I'll shop something for that too "
"OK baccha how much money do you want ?" Safina asked
"Uhmm can have your credit card instead "?asked kinza hesitantly
" Uhmm Arsal can you give that to her my purse is in the room "Safina said to Arsal
"Sure , why not " Arsal replied
" Mama I'll bring your purse from the room " kinza said and left to her mother's room
Everyone sighed after that , their all efforts of making the father - daughter bond strong always goes in vain but neither of them complained because somewhere Arsal knew he deserves this so he accepted kinza's harshness everytime including one of kinza's rules since she turned 16 that she will not accept any allowance from Arsal , she wants her mother to take care of her each and every need .
After taking the card from Safina Kinza went towards her car to go university as soon as the car entered the road she saw Him following her on his bike she rolled her eyes and started looking outside the window .
After sometime she entered the university there was still some time left for the classes to begin so she went towards the university garden and sat there on the grass . She took out a novel which she has been reading recently and started reading it .
After reading almost 2 pages she heard a very familiar sound , this was the sound of Azil's guitar whenever he saw her seating there he would also come and sit under a tree with his group which a few feet away from where kinza Sat. Soon Azil's voice also hit her ears , She liked it , she liked reading while listening to his music that's why she could never shout at him in this 3 years for disturbing her reading time She smiled a little and continued her reading
Tu mera koi na hoke bhi kuch lage
Kiya re jo bhi tune kaise kiya re
He was singing for her .. she knew it but couldn't stop him
Jiya ko mere bandh aise liya re
Samjh ke bhi na samjh mai Saku
He sang the next lyrics only he knew how much it actually meant to him only he knew the words meant more then just some words tied in a rythm
Saveron ka mere tu suraj lage
Tu mera koi na hoke bhi kuch lage
She has become his evrything , the sun of his mornings the moon of his nights but only if she understood that....
[ even if you're not mine it feels like something
Even if you're not mine it feels like something
What did you do , how did you do it
You've bound my heart so tightly
I can't even understand it
You seem like the sun of my morning
Even of you're not mine ,it feels like something]
Apna bana le piya ,apna bana le piya
Apna banale mujhe apna banale piya ×2
Dil ke sheher mei Nagar tu basale piya
And indirect plea ...his way of communicating with her , expressing his desires while he remained hidden behind those guitar strings , she knew it ...she knew his desires ....what he meant ...but was it that easy for her .....NO
[ make me yours , oh beloved ×2
Set yourself in the city of my heart]
Chhune se tere ha tere ha tere
Fikki rutoon ko rang lage
Teri disha mei kyu chalne se mere
Pairon ko pankh lage
His steps ? Always behind her
His heart ? Always with her
But did she care ?
NO
But did she feel something?
Definitely YESS
Raha na mere kaam ka jag saara
Haan bas tere naam se hi guzara
Ulajh ke yu na sulajh mei saku
Zubaaniyan teri jhooti bhi Sach lage
Tu mera koi na hoke bhi kuch lage
Did the world even matter when she didn't belive him ? Did it even matter that she said No 100 of times ? No it didn't matter because he knew what layed behind that facade he could read her eyes and he knew she was his
[By your touch, yes your , yes your
the dull seasons become colorful
By walking in your direction
My feet feel like they have wings
The world seems purposeless to me
Everything is just past ,by just your name
I can't untangle myself even though I try
Even your lies feel like the truth to me
You feel like something to me even of you're not mine ]
Oh sabkuch chahe mera naam apne karale
Badle mei itni to yaari tu nibhale
Jag ke hirasat se mujhko chudale
Apna banale bas apna banale
He didn't ask for anything, nothing , not even her love all he ever wanted was , was her permission a permission she would grant to him , to stay with her in every thick and thin , to hold her when she fell , to accept him as hers
[Take everything of mine , even write your name on it
Just fulfill this much of friendship in return
Free me from the captivity of World
Just make me your , make me yours ]
As soon as he finished singing kinza looked towards him and eventually found him looking at her as well he passed her a smile which she didn't reciprocate and left from there.
