eclipsed

I didn’t believe in love. I didn’t believe in anything.

I don’t want to sound like one of those woe is me modeling is the hardest career ever sounding models. I understand I am extremely well off. But that doesn’t change the fact that it’s debilitating. I don’t have time for friends, family, certainly no romance. I have to stay in PRISTINE figure. I feel tired or dizzy all the time. By the time I turned 16 I had given up on ever having a love life until my modeling career was over. I dropped out of school to be a model. I gave up everything for this life, I’m supposed to enjoy this. Being rich and famous? When I don’t have a single friend, I can’t do any fun stuff, and if my family ever talks to me then it’s just for money. I never wanted to be a model. I wanted to be a teacher. Specifically a history teacher.

That dream was squashed just as it started. I told my dad and got that only dumb people would be teachers, being in a job that provides less money than what is needed to survive. So i was immediately told that i would be no child of his if i were ever to take such an immature route for my life. That stung. I haven’t spoken to my dad in 3 weeks, since I told him I wouldn’t be giving him any more money to feed his gambling addiction.

I grew up in southern England, but when my dad got me into modeling at 15 we moved to New York city in the big USA. I don’t like it here but it’s where “all the opportunity is” . I’m currently enrolled in a program where I’m getting my GED. My dad doesn’t know about that. He doesn’t know about that. And there is a guy in my class that I think is kinda cool.. I wanna talk to him one day, hopefully one day before we exit this program.

I want to be in love.

By the way, I’m 25 now. Just thought that could potentially be helpful. My name is Rose. I have 3 dogs, Elle, Belle, and Bleu. I live in the heart of New York City. I’m about 5 ’5 and pretty small in frame (model small…) I know how to crochet, it’s really fun! And my biggest dirty pleasure is trashy reality tv. I can’t explain that. It’s genuinely the most enjoyable form of entertainment to indulge in within the comfort of your own bedroom with no lights on and an embarrassingly large bowl of ice cream.

Piers.

I believed in love. Just not for me.

I’m Piers, I live in New York City and I’m a highschool drop out. I dropped out when i was 16 and moved here from Australia. I made music, made a nice career for myself. Then I found out I was being paid a fraction of what my band was because I wasn’t ‘educated’ and so I enrolled in a ged program.

This program is full of insufferable weirdos. There’s also a model in the class. I recognized her, she was the cover for my last album. Her manager was horrible to work with, however I was on the photo set that day and she seemed to be an overly kind person. And I usually find it annoying to work with.. Anyone?

I’ve certainly had girlfriends in the past but nothing serious. Mainly just girls that really wanted to date an international rock star. It was obnoxious. I’ve given up on romance nowadays. I’m too busy, I’m barely in the country half the time, let alone in my apartment. I find certain people debilitatingly boring. I find most people debilitatingly boring. Screw that, I find everyone debilitatingly boring.

Im 25, my name is piers, and im about 6’0