Secret Little

Nathan's pov:

As we sat in the large auditorium with my senior year group I couldn't help but feel apprehensive about getting my classification. Being on the football team always ment there was this expectation that you're should be a dom of some sort. Not that being neutral is necessarily wrong though so I think I'd be happy to get either.

I sat with my closest friends from the team, James jones or jj as he demands to go by, Andy Clarke, Matt dean and then me Nathan Philips. But I just get called Nate by everyone, including my mom. It's only been me and her since my dad died 8 years ago when I was 10, he died in a motorcycle accident and although his life insurance kept me and mom comfortable I'd do anything to just have my dad back again instead.

"Good morning students and welcome back for your senior year and more importantly your classification testing!" Mr Johnston, the school principal said from the stage. There was some mumbling amongst friends about how excited or nervous they were about their results. Everything about our future is depicted from today, our relationships, our employments, everything!

"Now as you may already knows these results are final and are determined by your dna biology from the blood samples that each of you submit. Now your results are kept confidential. If you so choose to keep it that way, only myself and Mrs Williams the school councillor will have access to these results until your graduation where your classification becomes public as you enter into the world. This being said we do encourage each of you to stay true to the classification you are assigned, this is particularly much more relevant to our special category of little." He continued, god that's one classification I don't want to get, although you get to go to college, work and still participate in society, there's restrictions and protocols in place to protect them and their little space time.

"If you get assigned little, we would encourage you to tell your parents, friends, teacher's and utilised the free nursery time available for little downtime. Okay that all being said let's get this process started and good luck to each and everyone of you!" Mr Johnston finished before Mrs Williams stepped forward calling names and rooms for students to begin their tests that correlate with their DNA.

During my testing I had a middle aged woman who spoke with sweet honey as she carried out my tests. A series of questions that had been selected based off of my blood sample. I couldn't help but feel anxious about the results as we came towards the end of the question. They seemed to hint to anything but a dom. "thank you so much for your participation Nathan, you may rejoin your year group" she said as she disconnected me from the machines.

I was the last of my friends to be tested as I walked back into the auditorium before I tripped over my loose shoelace in the corridor before I'm grabbed from behind "wow Nate!" I heard with a chuckle behind me as I'm stood up starting turning to see the captain of the team, William Spencer. "Oh hey Will! Thanks for the save! Have you had you testing?" I asked him looking up to him his massive build 6ft 4 muscular frame looking much more mature then the rest of us 18 year olds. "On my way now! Although I've a feeling I know what I'll get! Have you had yours?" He asked and I just nodded before he asked "are you happy with how it went?"

"Uh ye i suppose so! Nothing can change it any so we'll see! Good luck in yours Will" I said starting to back up.

"Thanks Nate! See you after and tie your shoelace please" he said causing me to chuckle before flipping him off as he turned away.

Sitting back with jj, andy and Matt we were all chatting about our upcoming football season and how good our line up was. "Honestly guys I think we could win it this year!" Jj said giddily to which we all reciprocated! It wasn't long before we all were hushed back in our seats to receive our classification envelopes. It was clear that jj and Matt would be Dom's, they were both tall muscular men who really did tower over me in their 6ft2 frames Andy is bigger than me too but not to the scale of the other at 6ft. Jj was mixed race, his mom was black and his dad white. Matt a stark contrast of pale white with dirty blonde wavy hair. Andy was white with auburn hair and his face lightly dusted with freckle, clearly some Irish heritage in there somewhere. I'm your basic white boy with a sight tan from the summer months as medium brown hair, I like to round my height up to 5ft 9 on a good day with my regular thick sole sneakers.

Andy received his 1st peaking at it slyly before coming back over whispering to us "um neutral" to which we smiled at, jj giving his a clap on the back as Matt went to retrieve his, he sat in his chair before opening it and tilting it to us to show us his DOMINANT title. We each congratulated his silently before it was JJs turn. He opened it as he walked and gave the air a slight punch before sitting down making us chuckle. "Dom?" I asked and he nodded giving me a side hug "sure am!" I really was happy for them all. If I got neuterel then we'd be equal I thought as I stood up to receive my white envelope. I opened it enough to see the title LITTLE, before I shoved it closed, I felt my face drain of colour but I tried to compose myself as I sat back down, "well?" Jj said beside me smiling. "Oh eh just neutral" I said trying to force a smile and andy smiled at me nodding probably happy to have another neutral in the group. "Oh excellent you guys!" Matt said as they finished off the last few names before we were allowed to mingle together.

We head to the corner of the room where our large team congregated being more hyper aware of the drastic hight difference between me and most of the team bar one other who stood maybe 2 inches taller then me. Will came up to us all smiling, "well are we all happy with our results guys?" He said to the 4 of us. "Sure am! What did you get will?" Jj said and Will smiled "caregiver, I knew I would and I couldn't be happier" I didn't think his smile could get any wider. "What did the rest of you get?" He asked as Jj then Matt both spoke up "DOM" andy said slight quiter that he was nuteral and then Will turned to me and I said "neutral" averting my gaze from anywhere but him. "Awh a well rounded result guys congrats anyway! And onto more important matters, training starts tomorrow Tuesday and don't for a second think it will be an easy session since it's the first back, we're hitting the ground running from the start!" Will said and we all nodded, "wouldn't expect anything less" Matt said before Will strolled off towards his best friend Henry who I overheard mentioning he also was a caregiver. I need to make a conscious effort to keep away from them both, they're likly on high alert for little.

"Earth to nate?" Jj said waving a hand infront of my face.

"Yea?" I said turning back to the group.

"Ice cream to celebrate?" He said smiling down at me. Celebrating was the last thing on my mind right now as I try and process the massive change to my life, but I couldn't not celebrate the guys being happy with their results

"Sure" I said following them out to JJs car where i hopped in. Andy traveled with Matts car to keep him company to the parlor as he needed to take his car as he lived in the opposite direction to us 3.

"You okay Nate?" Jj asked when it was just the two of us in the car.

"ye I'm fine Jj" I said losing through my teeth. I had a strong feeling that I need to get use to the prospects of lieing now since I'm never telling them that I'm little as long as I'm in school.

"You're not happy with your neutral results are you?" Jj questioned as he kept his eyes on the road. "It's not a bad title to have, I know everyone just wants to be a dom but theirs a place for every classification in this world and each have as much positives as they do negatives. So don't be disappointed okay Nate okay?"

"Yea okay, thanks Jj" I said as we pulled into the car park behind matts car.

Each classification as positives and negatives he said? Not a single positive was coming to mind when I pictured that 6 letter word plasters in bold font across my assignment sheet that felt like it was burning a hole in my pocket.

After ice cream and chatting I just wanted to curl up in bed and scream into my pillow and drink my weight in my mom's hot coco despite the still sunny weather I thought as JJ pulled up outside my house, "thanks jj!" I said standing up "see you tomorrow Nate and don't forget your training gear!" He said because I gave a thumbs us as I closed the door over.

Inside I throw my shoes off and my bag at the front door before walking towards the kitchen where I hear my mom singing as i grabbed the envelope in my hand. I could lie to her like I plan on doing with the guys but I love my mom and I figured she would have found out anyway. I needed my mom's support to get me through this year.

"Ah Nate sweetie! Well what did you get?" She said excitedly as she strolled over to me matching my height. Her face fell slightly as she relised I wasn't smiling before the invisible dam that was holding in tears from the 1st moment I looked at the page finally burst. As I leaned into her tears forcefully running down my face. I've never been much of a crier but I couldn't contain myself as i hiccuped and sobbed out. "Oh Nate darling, what's the matter, you're not happy with your results are you?" She said stroking my back up and down as she hugged me. "You want to tell me what you got?" She asked and I shook my head no. Not that I wasn't going to tell her, I just couldn't say the word out loud, as I leaned back handing her the envelope. She pulled out the page fully scanning over it before letting her arm drop to her waist. "Oh Nate darling, I know you're sad, angry disappointed in your results but don't be. You're still the same old Nate that we all love and cherish. Thiers nothing wrong with being little Nate. Not a single thing! We will get through this together and I'm very sure the boys will support you too" she said wiping my tears again with her thumb.

I frantically shook my head. "No mom I'm not telling them, nobody else can know, I just! I would never live it down!"

"Okay darling that's your decision and i will support you as best as I can, have you seen what age range you are?" She asked and I tilted my head looking confused before she looked down at the sheet again flipping the pages over.

"Ah here it is- we are glad to announce your little age is <2" she said before glancing up at me as i looked at her dumbfounded. That's the youngest Iv heard of most littles getting! God could this day get any worse. I felt fresh tears streaming down my cheeks as mom pulled me in for a hug again. "Shh it will be okay, everything will be okay. How about I have some coco before dinner?" She asked basically reading my mind as I leaned back as she went about making the coco. I sat at the kitchen table as I glanced at the sheet that my class sat on, a list of things that fits well with my age group. After reading a couple I pushed she sheet away recoiling at the words written before me.

“I’m sorry mom” I said after sitting down at the table when her bringing over my favourite hot chocolate.

“Oh hush now, you have nothing to be sorry for, besides I get to have my baby boy back, even if he’s the same height as me” She said chuckling.

“Mooom!” I said getting pink cheeks.

“Do you want me to purchase anything little for you?” She said and I heard some excitement in her voice.

“No I’m good, if I can keep it subdued as best I can I think it would be best so I don’t slip up in school.” I said before sipping at the creamy coco.

“Nat I don’t think thats wise, what if you build it all up and then you drop, I think if you have some little time in the house it would be good for you darling, have some balance” She said which made sense but it didn’t stop the lump in my throat build as I choked out,

“but I don’t want to act like a baby or use baby things” And wipe the tears forming in my eyes.

“Ok you take the lead on this sweetie, if you feel you’ve changed your mind come and talk to me, or if I feel you’d benefit from something I’ll suggest it ok, you got this honey” She said getting up and kissing the top of my head reassuring.

I felt bad for my mom, she finally has and adult son and is now going back to the start almost.

“Thanks mom, it really means a lot to me” I said standing up and picking up the envelope closing it up again and retreating to my room until dinner was called. I hurried the envelope down the bottom of a drawer in my desk to hid it in case the guys came over. They mostly came to mine since they all had siblings, here we had space. It was also another reason why I didn’t want to have any little items around the house, theres no excuse for us to have a bottle or anything around the house, the thought made me shudder, although I feel like I was handling the news as best as I could. I mean what else was I ment to do, I can’t change it, its done and official. At graduation we get official classifications ID cards, where your true results come public. I just need to make it until then, I don’t know what the future holds for me anymore, I mean littles can still work, but only part time to allow for little downtime. Everything just feels overwhelming as I lay on my bed with a stressful headache brewing.

“Sweetheart, come on up you get dinners ready” I could hear my mom shaking my shoulders as I opened my eyes rubbing them,

“sorry mom I didn’t mean to sleep, I’ve a headache” I said standing up following her down the stairs to the kitchen seeing teriyaki chicken stir fry, “this looks amazing thanks!” I said sitting down digging in as mom placed a cup of water on the table with two pills “take these after for your headache, after dinner shall we watch a movie?” She suggested and I agreed.

After doing the dishes we settled on the sofa under a blanket as she brings in another coco and cuddled in to my side. I’m not looking forward to school tomorrow and lying to everyone but for now I just sigh and relax with my mom.