Chapter 1
~Winter~
I scrambled to find my stuff from the ground as I took another hit to my side. Tears blurred my vision as I picked up my books and stuffed them into my bag quickly.
“Look at the freak and her pathetic bag,” Alyssa laughed with her friends as she shoved me to the ground again. “Mommy and daddy couldn’t afford you a decent one?” She laughed again.
I quickly got up, trying to see my way through my blurred vision. What was wrong with me? Why was I crying? I took my bag and sprinted to my next class, hoping that this class didn’t end up with me crying or bruised like always.
I entered the classroom, head down, and picked the back window seat, hoping to avoid anything and everything. Listening to music always seemed calming to me, it made me feel something besides the ache in my chest and the thought that i could never be loved. Not by a friend, not by a family member and certainly not my a lover. All of those seemed very far, very unreal, almost impossible.
As I listened through my playlist and looked outside, as I watched the Evercrest Ember Academy students walk out for recess. The EEA was one of the prestigest schools with a huge campus. Everyone there looked happy and perfect. I couldn’t help but wish I could be done with high school so I could finally get the chance of a fresh start.
As i watched everyone, someone stood out, the boy that I would always watch from afar. I’d never seen someone so beautiful like this. With his dark hair, dark eyes and sharp features he was like a god. And he was certainly build like one.
He looked about 6' 3 that would probably crush my 5’2 frame. And muscles rippled through his shirt every time he moved. His skin was full of ink from the places that were exposed. But i was sure that even under that shirt and pants, there would be a lot more tattoos than I expect.
It wasn’t my first time watching him, or the last. There was something about him that made my lower belly tighten. I wasn’t sure if that was normal or if i should go to the doctor. But it felt good, like it wanted, no, needed more.
Class had started minutes ago but i wasn’t paying attention. I didn’t even realise that the whole class was still talking about me and throwing paper balls at my direction. I was just lost in the beautiful creature outside.
“Hey freak! We’re talking to you, little bitch. Are you deaf too?” Sarah yelled as she smacked my head, causing my headphones to fall on the desk.
“Didn’t you hear me, bitch? I said who are you looking at?” She asked again as i blinked back tears.
“I.. I was just.. looking,” I mumbled as i looked at the ground.
She pushed me from my chair and shoved me to the ground as I whimpered in pain.
“I know that. Do I look stupid to you? Huh? I said who? Who were you looking at? Answer!” She shrieked as she shoved me harder.
“A-at.. at h-him,” I said in tears, showing her the boy with a shaky finger.
She laughed hard with her friends that I couldn’t help but wonder what was so funny.
Once they calmed down she looked at me with mocking face.
“You’re looking at Evander? The Evander Marchesi? She laughed harder this time.
That was his name. Evander. Evander Marchesi.
“You’re so much more pathetic than I thought. Do you even know who he is? You think that he would look at someone like you? Love you? Fuck you?”
She paused with a smirk. “Oh wait, sorry, he doesn’t fuck pathetic virgins.”
They walked away, leaving me alone in class on the ground crying. I couldn’t do this anymore. I needed to get put of here. Now.
I packed my bag and got a permission letter from the principal to go early. I couldn’t stay for another second.
I walked out and breathed in the fresh air, trying to calm myself.
