Baby Boy

Kai’s pov

“Wake up it’s time to get ready! Its classification day.” I sigh hearing the speakers go off and Mr. Dunn yells. Does he always have to yell into the speakers every morning? I get up and climb down from my top bunk.

All the other boys around me do the same. We line up by the three bathrooms and wait for our turn. We’re limited ten minutes for showering since today is an important day. But any other day it’d be five minutes.

I really hope i don’t get any sort of dom classification. I’m ready to be out of this place soon. I’ve been in the group home since i was ten years old. After that no one wanted to adopt me.

I had plenty of foster parents but they all returned me within a month. Apparently i was too quiet for them. Too isolated. I just like to keep to myself. Plus after my first foster home i learned to keep my mouth shut. I remember them vividly. The Andersons.

They were so cruel. A young couple wanting a young boy. The wife shed withhold food from me because i wasn’t do everything perfect. I made too much of a mess with my toys. I didn’t know how to make my bed or tie my shoes.

I couldn’t eat proper enough. Everyday her husband would get home and she’d run to him complaining saying i ruined everthing.

That’s when he’d pull out his belt and beat me. If he was away on trips she’d make me write lines till my fingers bled. I wasn’t very good at writing i was only six. So when i spelt something wrong id have to do it all over again.

When my social worker came to check on me she saw how much i had changed from the happy talkative boy. After she took me for a checkup the Andersons were arrested for child abuse.

My social worker Mrs. Sophie told me i’d never have to see them again. Once the showers open i go in and quickly clean off as best as i can. I just hope that when i get my classification it’s a way out of here.

None of the boys like me. They all make fun of me for being small and quiet. I’m much shorter then all of them around 5’4 and i’m not built with muscles. I prefer to read alone in my room.

Once i’m clean i quickly get dressed and go back my room. My roommates aren’t back yet which i’m grateful for. I pack my bag with books and my stuffed kitty. Her name is Ms.. Whiskers.

All the boys make fun of me for having her but she’s the only thing i have left of my mom. The day before my mom died in a car accident she gave me Ms. Whiskers.

It’s all i have left. All they’d let me keep. My social worker tried to get my extended family to take me in but they all refused since they never liked my mom. “Five minutes boys. Get your stuff and head outside to the bus!”

The speakers go off again and i quickly zip up my bag and slip on my shoes. We all line up and walk down the stairs to the front where the bus will be. We have a special bus for all the group homes it’s dark blue.

I wish we could ride the normal school buses but my social worker said it’s easier for them to keep track of us this way.

We’re all eighteen now but until we get our classification we have to follow the rules. I get on the bus and sit in the front away frrom everyone.

Last time i tried to sit with the others Tom punched me straight in the face. I won’t be making that mistake again. After the we stop at the girls group home we start heading to school.

It’s only twenty minutes away which isn’t so bad. I curl up in my seat making myself smaller so no one can see me. If they can’t see me they won’t even notice i’m here. As we pull up to the school i see everyone lined up outside as they get placed into groups.

The group system makes the classification process faster. I’m pretty sure that’s what i overhead. Once the bus stops i quickly get off the bus and walk over to the lines. There’s a table with five workers sitting at.

They look like nurses maybe. I go up and give them my name. They put me in group A. The first group maybe that’s good i can get done faster.

I quickly find my group and stand at the back of the line with my paper that has my name and information. Soon there’s so many more people behind me and my group is lead inside.

They lead us to the very back of the school. It’s quieter here but then i notice a bunch of people walking in and out of trailers that are set up on the football field.

There’s two trailers labled “Group A” We all go over and split up lining up infront of each trailer. Im in line behind the second trailer.

I keep my head down staring at my feet as i rock back and forth. This is taking forever. They could atleast give us chairs. I pull my hood over my head trying to stay hidden. After what seems like forever i’m finally getting called in. What looks like a nice old man waves for me to come in.

I walk up the steps and go into the trailer. It looks like a doctors office. There’s a female nurse in there as well. I hand her my paper and she types it in.

“Okay kai please sit on the bed.” I do as she asks and kick my feet back and forth lightly. They both watch me and take notes. Which doesn’t help with my nerves. “Kai i’m gonna give you a shot and then i’ll take a small amount of your blood. Can you be brave for me?” I nod and take my hoodie off so she has access to my arm.

My hands shake slightly as i try to hide how much shots scare me. I don’t want to be an inconvenience for them. “Do you have something you’d like to hold onto?” I nod and take Ms. Whiskers out of my bag holding her to my chest and i turn my head looking away.

I feel her pinch my skin together before i feel the prick of the needle. My tears fall silently as i feel a sting and then warmth throughout my whole body.

My head feels super light. “Okay now i’m gonna take your blood. Can i see your left arm?” I hold out my left arm for her too focused on how weird my body feels. She walks away and i watch her but my vision gets blurry. “Okay why don’t you lay down for a minute.”

I nod and slowly lay down feeling around the bed so i don’t fall off. I see the doctor come over and pull a chair up by the bed before he sits down. “Kai i’m gonna ask you some questions okay? and i want you to be completely honest.” I nod and wait for him to speak.

He pulls out a clipboard and grabs a pen. “So kai who is that you’ve got there?” He points at Ms. Whiskers. Why doesn’t he want to know? is he gonna make fun of me too? I hold her closer to my chest. “Ms. Whiskers.” I mutter quietly but he hears me.

I see him write something down before giving me a smile. “That’s a beautiful name. What do you like to do? do you have any hobbies?” I shrug and stare at the wall while i think.

I stroke Ms. Whiskers fur gently trying to focus. “Uh i like to read and color. I don’t know what else.” He nods and writes stuff down again. “Do you like to take care of others or do you like being taken care of?” He’s tryna trick me.

I’m not gonna let them give me a dom classification. “I like to be taken care of.” He nods and writes something down again. Seriously what is he writing. “Do you have items that bring you comfort? Like making you feel safe and calm.”

I hold up Ms. Whiskers and he gives me another smile. “So Kai what was your childhood like?” I sigh and lay curl my legs up to my chest.

“well when i was with my mom it was nice. We had lots of fun. She’d play with me and spend time with me. We’d go on weekly movie days and get ice cream. But then she died and i had to live with mean people. Now i just stay to myself and out of the way.”

The doctor frowns and looks at the nurse. She hands him a computer and we sit in silent while he reads. She’s probably showing him my folder of everything that happened to me.

While he reads a timer goes off and i watch the nurse open this circular thing and take out the tube that has my blood. But this time it’s not red. It’s a light blue.

I wonder what that means? “Okay Kai i know your classification. I want you to take a deep breath and stay calm okay?”

I nod and take a deep breath and wait for him to speak. “You are a little. You’re little age is 1-4. But since you’re a little we can’t let you go back to the group home. We will have you’re stuff packed and brought here. But you’ll stay at the school with their caregivers and the other littles. Tomorrow school will start and you’ll be able to meet the caregivers that got classified today.”

My body freezes and i close my eyes hoping this is all a dream. I can’t be a little. I was hoping for just sub or slave or something easy. Being a little? I really am pathetic like the boys said. No wonder they hated me.

I pinch my arm and open my eyes. The nurse gives me a sympathetic look and i know it isn’t a dream. “You can rest in here while i get someone to take you to the little room.” The doctor gets up and leaves while i bury my face in Ms. Whiskers.

This is all too much. Everything is changing too fast. When the doctor walks back in there’s a man much taller he looks like he’s maybe mid thirties. “Hi kai im sam im gonna be your temporary caregiver until you end up choosing a caregiver. Let’s get you to the little room okay?”

I nod and sit up but my body sways as my head gets dizzy. Sam holds me upright. “Is it okay if i carry you? The classification shot can make you feel a little dizzy sometimes.” I nod weakly knowing i have no choice. He picks me up wrapping my legs around his waist and my arms hang limp off his shoulders.

I lay my head in the crook of his neck as he grabs my bag carrying me out. This isn’t so bad. He’s pretty comfy and he smells nice too. I close my eyes letting my body relax. Hopefully he isn’t kidnapping me.

I hear a door open and shut so i look around seeing Light blue colored walls with little drawings. The lights are dimmed it’s more relaxing.

We walk to two big doors and Sam scans a card and the door opens. As we go in i hear people crying and screaming but it quickly stops as another door closes.

I see a white crib at the corner and a bunch of other things i don’t know the names of. The room is dim so i can see the moving stars and planets on the ceiling.

My eyes get lost in the movement i haven’t notice Sam layed me in the crib. “Can i change you into some comfy jammie’s?” I see him holding up a blue footed onesie that has dinosaurs on it.

I give him a nod and he quickly strips me naked and grabs something else. “Kai i’m gonna put a pull up on you okay. Sometimes the day or or after getting your classification you’re body will change and you’ll have accidents.” I nod and squeeze my eyes shut not wanting to see this part.

He slides the pull up on me and quickly puts me in the onesie. Once i feel it’s zipped up i open my eyes and hold Ms. Whiskerss to my chest again. “Okay bud i’m gonna make you a warm bottle of milk. i’ll be right back.” He leaves the room and i just stare at the stars and planets move on the ceiling.

It’s really calming i think i actually enjoy it. The room is so quiet and peaceful. It’s just me in here. No one else. But it feels kinda lonely. Sam walks back in holding a baby bottle filled with milk.

I feel my body tense up at the idea of me drinking that. But my brain starts to get fuzzy and i feel the dizziness coming back. “I promise you’ll like it. Just one try.” Sam brings the bottle to my lips and i reluctantly take it.

The second the warm milk hits my tongue my body takes over and starts suckling as if i can’t get enough. Sam rubs my belly and keeps the bottle angled just right. once i finish the bottle i feel my eyes grow heavy and start to droop. I don’t think i’ve ever fell asleep so fast.

Throughout the night i was lost in sleep. No dreams just pure rest. but that all came crumbling down when i felt something warm and wet in between my legs.

I open my eyes in a panic and hear the hissing sound of me peeing myself. No no. already? Sam is gonna be so mad at me. maybe if i don’t tell him it’ll all be dry by morning and he won’t know. Yeah ill do that.

I lay back down and try to relax but as the pee cools down it gets uncomfortable and i feel cold. I snuggle closer to the blanket trying to warm up. I hate using diapers this sucks and it’s itchy. I go in and out of sleep.

My body’s too exhausted to be awake but i’m too uncomfortable to be asleep. After awhile the diaper feels dry but my skin burns and itches. I try to not itch my thighs and butt because it hurts more when i do itch.

I turn my head seeing the sun shine in on my temporary room through the small square window that’s locked up. They really don’t want us escaping.

A knock comes on the door and then Sam’s voice “I’m coming in.” He walks in and goes to the dresser grabbing clothes and another diaper. “Well how’d you sleep buddy?” I shrug and pull Ms. Whiskers and my blankie closer to my chest. “That’s okay buddy. Let get your diaper changed and then get you dressed. We’re gonna make you look super cute for when you meet the caregivers today.”

I let go of the blanket and Ms. Whiskers setting her down by my head. Sam undoes my onesie and then he takes off my diaper. “Oh Kai. Why didn’t you call for anyone last night?” I tilt my head confused what he’s freaking out about.

“Kai you have a diaper rash. You have to call for someone if you go pee. I’m so sorry bud i should’ve told you. Next time you go pee just call for someone okay or press this button.” He points to a blue button on the side of my crib. I nod showing i understand.

He puts this sticky stuff all over my bum and thighs and my penis. Ugh it was so gross. The stuff feels so weird i don’t like it. after he’s done everything im in an actual diaper not a pull up anymore.

I watch the ceiling as he puts me in another footed onesie that has little kittens on it this time. Then he attatches a clip that has a paci connected to it.

I pick the paci up looking at it. The front design is kittens to. Guess he’s going with the cat theme today. I grab Ms. Whiskers realizing they are all orange kittens like her. Sam’s so nice. “Thankyou” Sam gives me a wink then grabs my paci “Why don’t you give this a try bud? you might like it.” I sigh and open my mouth.

Sam rubs the nipple of the paci on my lips and i open my mouth more taking the paci. It’s pretty awkward at first. My teeth keep biting down on it.

I keep suckling trying to get a rythm so it’s comfy. Sam holds the paci in my mouth helping me so it doesn’t pop out. Once i’ve got the hang of it i realize it’s actually pretty nice. This is like the bottle from last night.

I really like the bottle. “Okay Kai it’s time for you to meet the caregivers.” He picks me up and i wrap my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck. My head lays in the crook of his neck as he walks and pats my diapered bum.

We walk through the colorful hallways and i focus on all the paintings. Especially the animals. I love animals so much.