The Strange Feeling
It's been 2 months our higher secondary exam results are been published, now, finally the portal has opened. People are applying for their dream college's some with the needed percentage, some with lower.
There's too much crowd in cybercafe today, though it's the last day of applying for college, don't know if our government is gonna extend the date or not. I'm sitting in the corner chair near the gate of cybercafe. Uncle knows me. He told me to sit a bit then he'll be coming for my application. It's been 40mins now I've been waiting. The clock showed up, it's almost 7:30 now, i just looked at uncle again hoping if he shows some mercy upon me.
He didn't. Badluck. Right when I looked out of the door, I saw a grocery shop straight, clear vision. And i remember I met someone there, maybe someone precious? Or close? Honestly i don't have an answer to those questions.
I don't know why, my mind certainly went blank and all that wanted is to meet that person again. Though I had things to buy from grocery shop, mom already handed me a long list in WhatsApp. Right then uncle called,
" Where are you lost? come here, now it's your turn. "
Well, finally my turn is here and i applied for my fav college's, first one was the heritage of my city. I kinda like historical places, so it would be a boon if I get admission in that particular college only.
After my application and the print outs were ready, I took everything, every documents carefully along with the application form. While getting out of Cybercafe, my gaze again shifted to that perticular grocery shop, again. And a feeling hits me. Unknown. Uncertain. Unexplainable.
There's nothing special in that grocery shop honestly, I don't like going to that grocery shop for some reason. Still, somehow, I don't know why I kept watching that grocery shop, hoping if that memory becomes true. If we meet again. Somehow. Somewhere. Again.
I felt that my mind is urging to meet that person again. I wanted to go to that shop again but I couldn't because I didn't like going there anymore. I shifted. And went to another shop instead. But, the memory, the meet up... Well, I can't explain further. I'm kinda failure when it's about explaining my own feelings rather than academic grades. Funny.
Somewhere i kept wishing and hoping if I get to see that person again who has kept me in such condition. I'm not able to concentrate neither able to do anything of mind. But unfortunately, I didn't meet him. Somehow made up my mind that maybe, that was fortunate to meet him again twice in that shop but it isn't my fate at all. I can't be that lucky.
I came back with all the grocery items in my hand almost weighting like 4-5kg. Still now, I'm getting lost. In some thinking, in somesort of imagination, or if I explain it in a word. HIM. Only Him. I don't know why I want to meet him so much knowing that it's not possible. I sat near the mirror of almirah and started talking to myself,
" Why? Why am I even thinking of him suddenly? Why does his face, the memories, the time I spent with him hits me sometimes so harder that it is now almost uncontrollable. Not always but sometimes. Sometimes. Somedays. Some nights. He's just so capable to taking away my sleep!! How and why!! "
I got up when I heard my mom is screaming at me, for doing some work which I didn't or maybe forgot to do. Well, had to go. This is how my day went today. And now it's finally night. Dinner done. House chores done. Everyone is asleep. And here I'm, still broad awake like a nightowl. Still thinking about HIM. His face. His voice. His eyes.
His voice is so melodious that it's constantly echoing in my head. Those eyes where I can't keep staring or maybe I'll never get a chance to stare, they feel like somesort of Maze. Labyrinth. Or something i can't explain or can never escape. The clock showed me it's time with such cruelty. Tho, it was already 2. A.M. Somehow managed to sleep but the thoughts never wiped out from my mind.
( Show some mercy if there's any grammatical errors )
