A woman's Lot.

It was a dark night within the confines of the rooms and there were not many sounds except the sounds of laughter. Diabolical laughs that settled into sneezes and then wept into the orbits of the mind.

The coughs followed and then what a nerd did. But the nerd did not budge mother are you okay?

But the worn-out woman who was mistress and wife to many did not answer she asked to be left alone to drink her tea.

The child like woman next to her irritated beyond belief. She just did not know the facts about life did not ask to be told and was totally stupid.

She whitewashed her cruelties by saying the boss would want that. The boss was the most wonderfully rich man who would carry her ahead and make her the chief mistress.

But she could never give him a kid so he would not. To barter there has to be a child and so she ends up loathing his first born.

Life is a string to a boa and there are many arrows and then she flung one or two just to be secure. She got married to Fidel did she not? Fidel a man no more because she made sure he did not but drink. His whiskey bottle never empty and he had gone blind.

He did nothing but sleep now his weight had not decreased she made certain he did not eat but being a liquor drinker he did go to the place where he could handle boys. Her friends and family were very sympathetic towards her plight a young woman such as herself involved married to Fidel.

She felt that the kid was about to know something and when she asked what she replied not much. I went to university had a nice sleep. She was stupid because had something wrong with her she did not remember what.

She did not think it was serious because she would have died if she had something serious. She had been on the point of toppling, and she now was asking for it.

She could have married again by now instead she had Fidel the castrato and she hated him. All because she knew what to make him see and eat. She hated them both.

When the stupid policeman returned him to the house in something like senile frustration that he lost his name and wits. She just pretended she did not see what the policeman were asking.

She opened and shut her mind as if stupid. She thought how she would fare on her honeymoon and how everything would be okay for the Wendy she had been.

When they returned Fidel to the house it was the kid who said of course he is our dad. When she pretended not to understand. Fidel was secure in the knowledge that he was safe, so he did what he did to her. Had sex with her when she disliked him so much.

One might ask why she married Fidel? Well, she had to because she had no house to live in and Julia said it was a good marriage well it wasn't.

Julia was not right about such things she made her see sense every time made her see the rightness and the worthless house within the rats and then the whole spaced out kid and the man without much to speak about. No life for a woman no life at all.

The days began to draw themselves in and there was no such thing as a distinct day. The one that stood out there was always this chat and then talk as if the whole thing was a mulled sound.

The thing was in musicals they would say what a wonderful day and mean it. Their glossy selfish eyes said it because they went round the world performing. Now that was a living that was a life.

Wendy had no such talent she had not applied herself at school. She too had fallen a victim to sleep. She slept through most of her GCSE's and then went on to become a whore when she nearly was caught it was Julia who saved her.

With an offer from the family who would make her see that being a woman was so good. All she had to do was amputate her leg and then when that was gone, she could join the family. Who were nice and warm and would add to her life.

Wendy was never that bright and always choose the easy way out.

So, she did as she was told and went broken and all that forever more. She broke herself into fragments both emotionally and physically in order to be looked after. She did nothing but cry for the first five years yearning for her life and youth who was she now? What was she now what did she do.

She did not have a leg to stand on. She did the easy thing how easy was it to go without in front of plenty? How easy was it? She had sold her life for a piece of bread and some tokens she felt the sham the shame and all that because what reasonable woman would do such a thing.

She had skipped school and did away with things. She did it nicely for herself and then realized she had made a mistake it was all a mistake.

She made a mistake her life if she did not take control would never be the same.

I cannot go back and I can only move ahead so she suffocated Fidel bit by bit she killed him. She did not think it wrong of course not she did she was careful she got his pension and his house and shop she paid the two sisters the money she thought to silence them. They all went merrily after that.

Fidel in fear went senile and then he died in hospital because she insisted on visiting him every day. There was no reason why she should not they spoke about such matters and then when he was about to come home the pillow did the treat.

The kid did not see it could not believe it then she went on to assume the post of widow and said how her love for her husband was greater than anything in her life.

The lecture went on for half an hour until the nurse came to ask for the room back. The tearing agony was such that she was offended. It was a point scored and then the nurse said maybe a little more.

"Where is she?"

"Oh, she has no love."

Then after fifteen more minutes speaking the total truth she said she was done with it all. Now she could begin to live and believe in herself.

They found the kid within the arms of the physio making a crying sound.

Which Julia disapproved of saying fornications between staff and the public should be banned.

Wendy agreed.