Chapter 1
As I walked the halls of the school, all I could think about was how this is the last year of high school and the last year I would have see any of their ugly faces. I ignored most of their annoying conversations and gossip of what happened to them during summer vacation and what their plans were after everyone graduates from high school this year.
Everyone except me of course.
Today felt like any other day to me; I really didn’t feel like it was something special or anything like everyone else did. With that in mind a kept walking towards the classroom; while everyone’s voices became white noise in my ears.
Once I stepped through the door of the room, I found myself frozen at the spot like a deer in headlights. Sitting at the very back of the class surrounded by all of his friends as usual was Michael Rozen. Not only was this guy one of the most popular guys in school, but has been my long-time crush since they both met in middle school.
As the years have gone by of us going to school together, he’s only grown more handsome by each passing day and I’m sure I’m not the only one whose noticed. He has a very lean and muscular build and curly, black hair that I give anything to run my hands through and play with it all day long. He’s sitting down at his desk talking and smiling happily while being surrounded by his group of friends that probably just told him a funny story that happened during the summer.
I felt a hard pang of envy course through me as I watched them talk to him so casually. Something I was never been able to accomplish since meeting him all those years ago. That though alone made my shoulders sag and release a deep sigh of sadness. Oh, how I wished that I could gather just even a little spark of courage to walk up to him and talk to him like everyone else.
Before, I knew it I could feel myself being pushed forward from behind so hard that I almost lost my balance.
“Hey, what are you gawking at, you idiot?! How long are you planning on blocking the door?” Said a voice behind me along with the sound of my classmates giggling.
I didn’t realize that I must have been standing there for a long time and instead of getting out of the way, I turned around to the rude person in question. Standing behind me with her full glare filled with hate and annoyance was Victoria. She’s always been a little cranky bitch if you ask me and she thinks that the world revolves around her. Realizing that I wasn’t going to answer her, she rolls her eyes and makes her way to her seat which was not far from Michael’s.
Victoria turns around and greets Michael with her best morning smile as if what occurred between us ten seconds ago didn’t happen at all.
“Morning Michael! How was your summer? I missed you since you didn’t end up coming to my party the other day.” She said in sickly sweet voice.
His beautiful eyes went from his friend to Victoria and gave her a very kind smile.
Oh, how I wish that he’d smile at me like that.
“Sorry, Victoria but my parents really wanted to spend this summer together as a family. There was absolutely no way I was getting away from them this summer.” He says with a laugh.
My envy and jealousy was rising at very high levels as I continues to watch and listen in on their conversation right before my very eyes. I wished that I could conjure up enough courage to walk up to him and talk to him like Victoria just did, but I can’t. No matter what I do, I always either become a sweaty, stuttering mess when I try to talk to him or end up making a complete and utter fool of myself. My heart can only handle so many embarrassing moments in front of the love of my life, so I think keeping my distance is the best course of action for the both of us.
When the time is right, I will confess my feelings for him with absolute confidence and we’ll be together forever.
“I think she’s daydreaming again.”
“Oh my god, is she really?”
“What if she’s not daydreaming? What if she’s sleeping or something?”
Hearing some whispered comments, I realized to my ultimate embarrassment that I was caught in daze again in front of almost the entire class. The giggling turned into outright laughter when they realized that I’ve finally snapped out of it. I could feel my face turning red as a tomato and was about to turn tail and out of the classroom, but fate and luck wasn’t on my side today.
Our teacher chose that moment to step inside and close the door behind him.
“Alright, everyone settle down and take your seats!” He said.
I had no choice now, but to go sit at my desk like everyone else. I could feel everyone’s eyes follow me as I walked to my seat including Michael and his buddies. I sat down and quickly put my face in my hands to avoid any and all eye contact. That still didn’t stop my ears from picking up the barely suppressed giggling though.
This is totally not how I wanted to start my senior year.
