Our way to love

As buzzing sound went around to wake me up from my peaceful sleep, Immediately our new project flashes in my mind and client meeting today. International market will always be a challenge for us and this projects will be our entry to international market first time.

As I cover myself with blanket search for my clothes, which were lying on the floor, because of our little make-out session at night now I am sleep deprived this will lead to less energy and feel tired in the meeting.

I should have stopped him but I didn’t my mistake. I wear my clothes to only to be ripped away again by my not so fresh Husband looking at me

“Shivaay we have a meeting” I tell him, he immediately looked shocked then realizing he left me ran into the shower. I laughed at him. It is been 4 years but still, I have to remind him each thing. One Workaholic husband well can’t blame when even I am the same.

I get ready in other room, prepare myself for today’s meeting. “Annika Tie” he shouts. Well he always needs someone to tie his necktie properly, I run to his room help him wear it and buttoning his sleeves properly while he looking at me.

I leave again to prepare breakfast, I don’t like to eat food prepared by outsiders and also he never eats healthy food as his favorite was always junk so I can control his food habits as well.

I make apple and banana salads with cereals with glass of milk and bread toast. while he was sitting kitchen counter checking files and me. I don’t blush as it is not new to me, Ok when someone stares at you you cant avoid so I do.

As we finish our breakfast”You need to take you iron tablet you are already anemic,” he told entering dining hall which I obliged which I never did easily with even my own parents, a rebel was what I was, but his words just make me do it. Sigh And time continues to roll

As we completed the presentation we shake our hands with clients and deal was signed and now we are going to enter the international market. It was time to celebrate, all were happy as our two years hard work paid at last.

As I head to the cabin, instruct my PA to check the deal and arrange a meeting with employee with bonus as it is only because of them we are here and also meeting about new products. Just after checking presentation later I check timings to find it noon, now all the worker would have a break and I can’t get them to work now.

I again get into my files checking it ones again until I hear a knock. I lift my head command them to come in “You again avoiding your lunch” he told me to which I just nodded. “Did you have?” I ask him while he points at his plate and my plate. We have food while discussing our further plans.

“It is been four years and a half year since our marriage,” he tells me while I go still hearing word marriage pain, hurt, betrayal was all ran in my mind shaking my inside, Marriage which was a nightmare which I never accepted till now. He looks at me with the same expression

We were forced into it, for him, it was company for me it my parent’s blackmail. We were different, we never even were ready for it, we never wanted it but it was forced.

“Nothing changed right” he asks True nothing changed, this was a hopeless loveless marriage which still I can’t digest as it happened within hours.

“Shivaay does this relation even exist,” I ask him to which he shrug.

“Mom arranged party was an investor is participating for four and half year anniversary with my mom and dad, they are crazy” I tell him to which he nods and we laughs at their antics. who celebrate every haft year their anniversary.

I wonder what changed, as we are always dead opposite never agreeing with each other, killing us with our stare and run away from one another but now how we understand exactly what we think, how we bare with each other, how we started adjusting with each other, how it is comfortable being in his arms, even though we never expressed it.

Our dreams where different which now has become one as, we both together achieved what we both wanted, like I loves photography while he loves trekking so in free days we both of it together. It is as if we are a really lovely couple, I laughed as I remember our last trekking camp. He too did it as if he knew what I was thinking and shock we never laughed together especially not in the office.

Our taste were and still different but how we combined both and adjusted to each other liking, like he likes multi cuisines while I like Indian and Chinese but now we both modified dishes which suited each other taste as well as felt healthy.

We do fight, like yesterday we fought about our opinion in upcoming project design but later sorted out and corrected our view combined our ideas about it and ended up in bed together without any barrier.

His touch, his presence still lingers me as blush creep my cheeks I look at him to see him smirking.

I felt safe and protected with him like I felt when I was in his arm last month after the minor accident which I thought was last day of my life but no he saved me from it and held me in his arms safely and hugged me which made me feel nothing can even touch me; Protected. He was worried caring helping protecting me why?

“You are fine,” he tells me in a worried tone, why not I had a panic attack last time I thought about it, but it when I went through it I just wanted only one thing, not even my life but to be in his hand. He squeezes my hand assuring me. I smile at his gesture which I can never get enough of it, like when he kisses the tip of the nose, draw patterns while our hand intertwines unknowingly.

I felt content and complete, but does he feel the same, insecurities which were huddled up in my heart burst out. Does he feel the same if not I don’t want him to be tied up with me as this marriage contract end at the fifth year as promised by our parents for letting us do what we are comfortable with.

Will he fire me from our Advertising company, after all, it is his company. I can’t think about him not being by my side but he will leave me right.

I just want to forget it while he left my cabin without even a word slamming the door. Again I immersed myself in work and projects to forget the pain.

Why is it paining when this is what I want? Why as we already got what we want right as well we would get freedom from each other which we carved from the first night of our marriage. Days pass

So each day must be memorable from today as I can treasure memories till the end.

We spent limited time about company while enjoyed each other presence with still a stinging pain, we will never be again the same as we will part away.

And as days pass I realized I fell in love with him, as I realized it I was in cloud nine as I never thought I would again fall in love after going through the pain of heartbreak but fell on the ground as he never loved me the same.

It was after many days I cried helplessly without any physical pain as I stand under the shower, it pains to know the person whom you love was an enemy the person whom you love hates you.

He asked me what happened with a panic face as I got out I just told I got hurt while showering showing my now swollen leg as I really kicked the walls frustrated, he scolded me for good ten minutes while massaging with pain reliever but the pain never left it.

A physical pain is much better than pain in this situation which I feeling right now tears rolled as cried harder while I feel my heart clenching.

He comforted me massaging my leg, I tightly hug him while he does the same “Nothing, it will be fine” he kept reciting while I felt wet in my neck, I pulled away to see his eyes filled, I felt guilty “Sorry Shivaay you are crying because of me sorry don’t cry all will end soon” he looked confused later realization dawned him, and again he gave pained look.

We just hugged and slept. Day again rolled with us doing our happy things like picnic dinner date trekking swimming skydiving together which we both loved.

I never want to leave his hand but we have to right, I fell in love because we were married or else we would not and this is wrong as love should never have reasons. But it is hurting badly but it will eventually get used as days pass Annika

We will part our ways soon. Was all it ran in my mind.

Finally, I am going to be freed today but I never wanted it now as it stuck 12 am we both were now sitting in a living room waiting for it.

The cake was kept to celebrate our freedom no his freedom my heartbreak.

A few hours ago

“let’s buy a cake and celebrate in your style later in the morning we will go long drive in the bike to celebrate my way,” he told while entering cake shop. I felt happy but disappeared as soon as I understood what he meant.

“Yes celebrating your freedom Shivaay" I told him after purchasing everything. He gave confused look and smiled widely entered the car as I was facing window sulking thinking my sorrow.

Why does he care for me oh humanity then why the hell does he make me happy each day doing something which I like while i did his liking and enjoyed ourselves, then why did he open up about himself and shared his pain he felt has Nisha his lover died in road accident and made me open up about Pradeep betrayal and making me stronger than ever lending his shoulder comforting me, Then why did he take my virginity Idiot.

Now I am again into heartbreak because of him right. He shouldn’t have done all it no he made me completely depend on him now but now I am independent and strong but I feel I can’t. Finally, why do I still feel he won’t leave me and he loves me too. It is wrong right.

“Happy anniversary Annika"

“Happy freedom day Shivaay"

We both wish each other and we both look stunned. We look at each other, it felt peace but it must not as it won’t last long.

Tears roll down ”I love you Shivaay, I know I am selfish to ask but please don’t leave me, I know we hated each other and I fell in love with you just because we were bound by marriage which is wrong but still don’t leave me” he looked shocked but didn’t answer anything for my burst out.

I am screwed.

“Let’s enjoy” we cut the cake feed each other and we played piano and had our dinner Even though it hurts it was reality I have to face.

“So dance,” he asked to which I nod knowing it is our last dance but still hoped not, our favorite songs played we danced together enjoying the silence which he twirl me. As I faced back at him, he was on his knees.

I wondered what is he up to mostly the last thanking I guess, but still hope he propose me.

He took my, hands, in his ”I really have grudge on you" was it all just to blame me, tears filled my eyes ”how can you always be first since childhood except our birth timings" he laughed, I was boiling inside ”Ok ok don’t kill me with your looks you will become widow then”Oh I am going to be Divorcee“I love you too Annika" i heard it wrong ”Pardon" I yelled and fell on my knees as I felt earth shaking still hoping I never mistaken it and it is true ”I love you Annika,Yes i love you may be you are right our marriage bound use but it was our way to love,it was our choice to fell in love no not choice it just happened so it is not wrong, I love you truly, thank you I never thought I can fall in love again yet you proved me wrong bring back my lost happiness and love thank you, still yesterday I planned to propose you each day but never got courage to do it even today but hearing I love you from you just bought me life and happiness which I can’t explain Thank you so much for everything Annika Singh Oberoi"

I held his face with my hand cupping it crashed my lips telling my acceptance of pouring my love and happiness.

“I love ShivaayI love you so much thank you so much for loving me even after knowing my broken heart and healing me thank you Shivaay"

“We need not thank each other as we both deserve happiness, we may fight but this love will bond us together in all ups and down our trust will always lead a path of happiness our understanding will never let us fall down and at last but not least our ego will never break us”

We both laugh as just yesterday we fought and never patched up due to our ego making us forget it and back again to normalcy.

As we held both hands stood up gazing into each other eyes closing our distance each second

" we must thank our parents without them we would not be bound and not found our way to love”

“Yes love” which I can’t get enough of it till the death When he calls me love

“Do you love me shivaay"

“Yes my love”

“I love you shivaay"

“I know my love”

“I feel like puking” I rushed into the washroom. While he rushed along with me holding me safely

After clearing my stomach everything blanked out.

I slowly opened my eyes saw white and blue walls, I stirred stretched myself feeling the mattress below me feeling it unfamiliar, looked around to find him sleeping sitting on a chair without backrest leaning on my bed.

We are not at home was it all dream which I never want to wake up and he bought me to hospital

“No” I shout as he flinch and open his eyes

“What the hell Annika” he whisper yell at me as nurse and doctor check my pulse.

“What happened doctor, was it all dream,” I ask him hoping not

“No, what dream Mrs.Oberoi," he asked confused making more confused

“Yesterday,” I ask him

"Oh you fainted so your husband bought here, it is common in this times"doctor answered

“In what times”I ask in whisper

“Oh, we didn’t tell you right” doctor ask I give confused look while Shivaay gulp.

"Congratulations Ms.Annika Oberoi you are pregnant we have instructed your husband about all diet and other exercise have to follow in this period and monthly check up is scheduled and we will take ultrasound soon after a week may be so now you can get discharged" I didn’t understand a piece of it except word pregnant which mean baby is growing within me as my hand involuntarily caress my belly while even shivaay does the same.

I was silent which even Shivaay followed till we reach home.

“I am pregnant shivaay" I ask him

“Yes my Anni" he tells me to hug me happily which I return the same

“I love you shivaay thank a lot I never imagined I would become a mother after everything thank you”

“Will I be a good mother will we be good parents?” I asked him

" we will even our parent thought the same before we born see they gave birth gem like us who soon to be parents” he consoles me to which I agree

“But no thank you to as it is your duty” he adds with an arrogant smirk on his face. Idiot.

"But how, we used protection naa"

He smiles nervously “I thought if you get pregnant so you won’t leave me”

“I will never leave you shiv”

“I too Anni” we laugh feeling happy

“But ones in life we hated those names we called each other fighting till the death but now we enjoy it,” I tell him

“It was our way to love Anni” he tells me while I tell him

“Yes,our way to love Shiv”.

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