Suicide Notes

Namjoon,

Oh my god. Where do I even start?

If you’re reading this, then I’ve obviously gone through with my plan.

That sounds so cheesy, doesn’t it?

I didn’t want it to end this way, I can promise you that love, but it had to. I wasn’t happy here, and you knew that. The only thing in this world that brought me joy was you.

Namjoon, my precious Namjoon, I love you so much. I can’t explain how much I love you. You’re my everything, and you have been for so goddamn long.

I can still remember the time I realized I liked you. God, that was a long time ago.

You were 13, and I was almost 15. We were playing video games in your room. I realized I could have watched you all day. The way your eyes lit up when you won, or the way you smiled as I laughed at you breaking your controller.

You were breathtaking.

I wish I could have stayed with you in that day forever because it’s one of my days in. Besides, of course, the day you asked me out, and the day I said yes to your proposal. Honestly, every day with you was perfect, and that’s the truth.

I love you Joonie, more than anything in the world. I hope you know that.

Please don’t cry my love,

Yoongi