Brutes

When the adults have youths they want to live and behave like them kids we believe as kids that we might be in danger of being unable to grow with anything but gore. I am telling sharing this unlikely stores of knowledge so that the merest friendship between adults and young mums and dads can be sussed out for what it is. We are young adults being kids with our kids and enjoy them every moment of each day. They are lovely kids do not do much and are never trouble.

How wonderful that is. To be in such a world when nothing bad or wrong happens. We all believe we all want to believe that we are the happiest people ever. Look our tranquilisers prove that.

Not not not now. Yes daddy it is right that my mum and dad are younger than me. Well they have the toys to prove that.

We are now cash and carry are we not?

"When we are at home we work to enjoy our kids."

"We enjoy our time together."

"We are normal family."

"Nothing serious it is that we are so much young and do not want all that just now we made a mistake kids go away."

The alternative world we live in when the moon is now constantly on our mittens and we believe that we made love in order to romance them who did not want and we now family. We got so many different family ideas.

"All involving kids?"

"Yes whip them into shape and mark them into something bend them so we can all become likely lads."

"Hello sir?"

"Well kid?"

"We dislike your tone."

"Tune on the radio then the wrong channel?"

"Yes they speak much better than you do."

"Ouch they said what?"

"I am not amused tell them I will be writing to them as soon as the paper work is done."

"Gurgling sounds."

"Is that the sound of pen and ink?"

"No me whipping up ?"

"What ?"

"Ma."

"Well where is your ma?"

"She left us to go to the tot parties without you?"

"Why she go without me?"

We live in a insular world where nothing affects us it is not as if we are all connected by blood or something. Mostly we do what we like and allow the rest of the world to pick the pieces. Phones ring and then we collapse there is not much to be it is as if the phones connecting us to the world has disconnected me. The fear of life has began and that makes me just scared why because it is expensive the billing the constant thoughts the things which are the bustling for control the lack of content and add to this the nothing out of it all. Empty handed returns and then come back for the lot more of the lot like a woman washing for a man who is gay.

"Your dad isn't gay." He went in a smoulders inside the smitten down with the lack of his manly image.

It is that the worst can happen the worst has happened. That we have the gay rights and all that is right but what about the woman who is used because of factors like house work and shopping and the need the sheer need of the man for the things which he has to have after a certain time?

Singleminded delivery is the key we all believe in passing it on.

The two move in and I am told don't rock the boat. Life is about the things which we do and the two of them seem to love each others company. I am in the way because they must see the football and drink their beer and bottles of wine. Do not rock the boat means maybe I think that they are enjoying their lives to such an extent that I am in their way? I go back to the kitchen to think and I am thrown out again the other man is violently opposed to me doing the washing up or being in the kitchen. As soon as I go in he seems to shoe me out. I am no longer the one I feel and that makes me think it is impossible humans are such a puzzle.

I was not aware until then that I had the rocking horse was not me then but somehow I am accepting. Life has been so cruel and it simply does not mean anything.

It is nothing to do with us that you have everything and forever and we have nothing she said to me for they are rich and I am poor and that means I have forever and they are unique and me what I am?

That is Jane I think or was it somebody else the whole thing is bizarre did not know so many people know me so intimately.

“You are forever we are just passing through so get a life a wife or something.” She told me she tells me constantly in her many guises and he develops a fascination for her words and they make out all the time. The cost is they make out and it is right because they are married. The marriage rites had been gone through and I am in their way. I go to the day centre they come appealing to me to go back to some other place as I am in their way. I go to class they come to glare what are you doing here? I go to the surgery she comes as the doctrine of respectability. I go to the scholarship event and he is the head show and then when I go to somewhere else they are always there in each others arms trying to make me stop to make me stop doing what? They must not appear to be too dependent on me. On me what I am to these fiends is it a joke? What is the joke what are these people doing or trying to do to me?

“We need you nerd.”

“Need me how?”

“We just need you.”

“What for?”

That she is not even embarrassed she is not even trying to hide it her lips are trying to touch mine. I am not eventually going to see it. He is not seeing it. His wife wants me what for?

“Is she not getting enough with you?” I try to ask his behind but he does not reply he is sad for some reason he does not feel anything anymore to love someone as he has done and for that woman to turn out to be so involve with the thinking of what it is nothing right about this there is nothing right. I asked for this he asks? What reasonable cause did we give you?

“You stopped me working.”

“Working you were hopeless at work.”

“You stopped me having a flat because I thought you would both move in.”

“You stopped me from doing all the things I want to do.”

“Like what?”

“I can’t go out without your wife coming and trying to hurt me now.”

“Her females and herself and the men they sleep with come trying to poke round me on buses and then they stoop to the level of hooligans.”

“No use behaving in such an unseemly manner I think but they do. It seems I am the new fox which they enjoy hunting.”

“Why?”

“She said I used her trust.”

“Well did you?”

“No.”

“What else?”

“She said I made her a outcry.”

“Well haven’t you.”

“Then why the fascination with her?”

“You will not understand.”

“No I do not.”

“She is a disgrace to womanhood and to your selfhood and what do you do you give her money to work for you.”

“Because she works hard and does the job right and on time.”

“Yes so what?”

“She is reliable and efficient and gets along with people.”

“She is a wife too?”

“She behaves properly at all times does not shout and scream.”

“Well qualities we must all have.”

“Well bred and well brought up. Nice and easy to look at made up and ready to go.”

“I am ready now to ask you to go.”

“I will never leave you.”

“This is what it is this is what we made of our lives?”

“Life is not that easy.”

“Life is when I come at you with the hatchet and do it right.”

“Just when you are looking at her image.”