Find My Way Back

Prologue

Madeline -

As I sit down and feel slightly uncomfortable being here, but of course I agreed to only come here with him. He promised a best night of my life but that turned out to be a fucking lie. What a great boyfriend he was to me. I let him push me around, make me cry, and hurt me as always, but yet I still went running back to him when I loved him the most and he didn’t see or know that. I looked over to see a couple almost fucking each other as they sucked each others faces off.

My body got up from the couch as I started to wonder around looking for him, he said he would be back with our drinks but it’s been like an amount of 30 minutes since he’s been gone. I looked over to see the couple laying flat on the couch and still sucking each others faces. As I pushed through people who were dancing and grinding all up on each other, I was pretty much getting annoyed being here and it was starting to smell funny.

My eyes soon landed onto a certain person, my hand suddenly grabbed his shirt and I pushed him against the wall. He looked scared of me because well I am a scary person when I’m mad or annoyed. He gulped as he stared into my eyes. He better know where he is and if he doesn’t, he sure won’t be hearing the end of it.

“Where is Harry?” I ask with gritted teeth. I watch him open his mouth but close it right back as words don’t escape his lips. I roll my eyes as I look at him deadly into his eyes.

“Speak you idiot.” I said as I pushed him more into the wall as people walked by giving me weird looks. Like seriously I don’t have all night for this shit.

“Upstairs.” My hand let go of him as I fixed his t-shirt. I gave him and the rest of his friends a smile. I quickly rushed upstairs as I searched for Harry. Where the hell could here be at, he said he was going to be right back with our drinks, not leave me to go upstairs.

“Oh Harry!” I suddenly stopped right by a door that was on my right. I started to turn and quietly listen to whatever was on the other side of the door.

“I don’t understand why you’re still with a girl like her. You know she’s never going to give herself up to you Harry. I know you’re only after her because she is innocent. You’re someone who’s not innocent, you need someone who knows what to give you.” The only thing that was running in my head was why? Why her, and why couldn’t it have been someone else besides her. My fingers gripped the door as I opened it to see Harry half naked and her on top of him.

“So this is what you do? Leave me for 30 minutes so you could fuck her! I was so stupid for even thinking we could be a couple.” I said as the tears started to stream down my face. As I gripped my fingers and threw his damn ring at him.

“He’s all yours now.” I watched him push her to the side as she gasped from him being rude. He quickly tried to come after me as I ran out of the party. Everyone stopped what they were doing as they saw a running half naked Harry and a crying me.

“Maddie please let me explain myself.” As I got outside and stand in the middle of the yard. I started to laugh because he had nothing to explain to me anymore. I knew I should’ve seen this coming.

“No, I’m tired hearing of you explain over and over. You always do this to me and I let you step over me because I thought maybe he’ll change but I was wrong, I was just letting my own mind get to me and making me naive.” I said as the tears kept spilling. He tried to touch me but I pushed him and he soon landed to the ground. Everyone gasped as they watch what was happening.

“Maddie please.”

“No! I never want to see you again ever because if I see you, I’ll ruin you.” I said through gritted teeth. I started to back away and look up to see everyone staring at us. Suddenly my older sister came out looking to see what was going on.

“I told you to stay away from her when she didn’t needed this Harry.” I watched her throw her red cup at him as the beer spills all over his hair.

“And if I see you drive by my house or around her, I’ll damn make sure to get a restraining order on you asshole.” My sister grabbed me by the shoulders as I hugged her.

***

As I hid myself in the blanket and never leave because it was too warm. It has been four days since what happened and I haven’t shown my face at school. All I wanted to do was pack my bags and move away. Just live with my aunt Pearl. Suddenly a knock brings me back to reality, I quickly cover myself with the blanket as I hearc my door open.

“Honey, I brought you some soup.” I heard my mother’s voice, my bed dipped down as I felt my mother sit next to me.

“I’m not hungry mama.” I told her as I rolled over to scoot myself more into the wall and hide deeper into the blanket hoping it took me away from this world. I hated this, I hate how I was feeling and how I couldn’t get over him because what he did to my heart.

“Honey you can’t keep hiding yourself in here for so long. Soon you have to come out to get fresh air. Baby you’re papa is worried about you and so am I.” My mother said as she tried to rip the cover off of me but of course I wasn’t going to let go of the blanket.

“I rather hide here than face everyone.”

“Maddie.”

“Momma.”

“What can I do to help baby? I don’t want to see you like this? What are you so worried about, I understand you’re heartbroken but look on the bright side, you’re just one heartbreak closer to find the right person my love.” My mother tells me. Suddenly my fingers lost grip from the blanket and I looked to see my mother with a worried look. As I bit the inside of my lips, I didn’t want to do this but it felt like it was best for me.

“I want to live with aunt Pearl and finish my school year there.” I gulped as my mother looked at me. She looked like she was thinking too hard. She knew one of her babies was hurt and all she wanted was for me to feel better again and happy. I know mother will do anything to see me happy again.

“If that’s what you want then I’ll can your aunt Pearl in the morning to talk to her about you moving with her.” My mother brushed my hair to the side as she kissed my forehead before leaving my room.

“Get some rest okay baby.” I gave my mother a small nod as she closed my bedroom door. I looked over at my wall to see a certain picture of me and him. It was a picture we took when it was my birthday, I was turning sixteen and we just had barely started dating.

“Why do you have to do this too me?” I said as I grabbed the picture. The more I stared at it I couldn’t handle the pain anymore, I started to rip up every single picture of me and him, everything of him just makes me want to hurt myself just all because of him. I had let myself be miserable with him and shatter myself in the long run.

I look to see I was standing in the middle of my office as I look over to see I was daydreaming again as usual. I shake my head as I go back to paying attention to my work before my boss comes in and sees I haven’t done any.

“Maddie you’re mom is on the phone, she says it’s important that you talk to her.” I nod my head to my assistant and tell her I’ll answer right away. Ever since I moved with Aunt Pearl I never went back home again, since my parents decided to switch having holidays here in Washington D.C with me and aunt Pearl. Evie ended up staying behind because she ended up becoming pregnant her freshmen year in college. Evie and I were the only girls in our parents life. Our parents have tried to have another baby when I was still living with them, but they couldn’t so they ended up adopting a boy who is now seventeen.

“Mom?”

“Maddie.” The sound of my mother’s voice doesn’t seem very right, something was off and I was scared to even know what happen. I am holding in my breathe as I listen to the sound of my mother trying to come up with the words to spill about what happened back at home.

“I think it’s time for you to come home, it’s your father Madeline. He had a heart attack.” How can you hold so much pain you suffer through the years from a heart break by letting go, but how can you hold on from losing someone you love. I could choose, wasn’t because I was feeling a lot of pain that I have suffered or the pain of losing someone who was your first love and brought you to this beautiful wicked world.

My eyes look around the big airport as I tried to look for my brother who had no choice but to pick me up. Suddenly I hear my name being called. I look over to see a tall Liam standing there waving at me. He seemed to be with a young girl I never seen before.

“Liam!” I said as I give him the biggest hug. He laughs at how short I still am. I roll my eyes as I punch him in the shoulder. My eyes look to see the girl standing there shy and quiet.

“Hi I’m maddie, Liam’s older sister, who seems not know how to introduce me properly.” I said as i watched the girl giggle and Liam pushing me gently to the side.

“I’m Ari, Liam told me so much about you.” I look at Liam as he turns red as a tomato. I sure love this girl, me and her are going to get along just right. Suddenly I’m soon pulled away from Ari as Liam pulls me to the side.

“Don’t even dare Maddie. I know that look.”

“I wasn’t planning anything but since you said it. I might plan something. Oh and have you told momma or dad about Ari”

“No.”

“Why?”

“You’re the first one who knows about Ari, I wanted you to meet her first before anyone. You’re my best friend Maddie and my sister even if we’re not blood. I have known you since I was twelve.” I push my brother and then end up giving him a big hug. So I’m the big roll model for my brother. Now I knew I was the better sister.

“Yes! I beat Evie, I knew I was the better sister.” I said as Liam laughs at me. We all walk away and go to get the rest of my stuff for me.

The minute we arrived to the small house. It’s been long since I have been home or stepped inside this house, I knew my parents kept it just the way I left it when I moved with aunt Pearl. I look out the window to see my mother and Evie with my little niece.

“Ah! You’re home!” I was soon attacked with kisses and hugs. The only thing I ever did was laugh at my mother.

“Glad to see you home sis.” Evie says as she hold her stomach. She was pregnant with her second baby and this time it was a boy.

“Me too.” I said. Liam soon comes to us as he holds onto my stuff. I tried to grab my bag but my mother pushes my hands away from doing anything.

“You might be tired from everything. Let your brother do the rest and you go upstairs to get some rest. Later on we will go to the hospital to see your father okay baby.” My mother tells me as she brushes my hair out of my face. I give her a small smile as I nod.

“Just put it right here.” As I tell Liam to drop my bags. I look around the old room as I see the pictures of me with friends and family still hang up on my wall.

Suddenly my eyes soon land onto a box that says.“Don’t open Maddie.” I start to question myself what did I do to tell myself that. I was a young teenager that was very naive and too innocent to even understand anything. Of course I’m still a virgin and 21 years old who hasn’t got laid but I’m waiting for the right person to just come out of nowhere and save me from my heartache. I grab the box that told me not to open it, but before I could open it my brother Liam comes into the room.

“Maddie, I need to talk to you about something and I don’t know what to do.” I put the box down as I look up to my brother who looks scared and nervous about something. Whatever was in that box can wait my brother is more important to me.

“What is it Liam? Why do you look so scared?” The way my brother was giving me that look didn’t seem right something off and my brother was too scared to even go up to my mother so instead he came to me.

“I did something stupid.”

Cast:

Selena Gomez as Madeline Steele

Harry Styles as Himself

Disclaimer:

Please do not steal my story all my writing and my hard work goes to me. I work very hard to get my books to come out good. In this book celebrities are playing different people with different personalities so whatever goes on in this book, does not happen in real life as those people. Please understand this book goes to the author’s hard work and nobody else’s. There will be mature content sexual and violence. This is only for imagination and fun only nothing else.

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