Before
I never thought it would be like this, the first love, first kiss, first well everything. but when I was with luke I felt alive. like I might not die in a second from now. Like I can be me, not the 'girl with cancer'.
I was diagnosed with cancer at the age of 4. leukemia to be exact. I'm 16 now but not fully cancer-free, though I've gone through enough legal treatment, chemotherapy, trial treatment, and transfusions to last me the past 12 years since. 12 years with cancer. Even though I'm living now I know this disease will eventually tear me away from my loving family; my poor little brother Tove, my older sister Tiana, my mum and my dad, maybe crying, maybe pretending that it's ok, or that they don't even care at all. All waiting for me to let go of the world they lived in, away from all the made and gave for me. All for me. All for me.
