FREE TO LIVE

THE ILLUSION

What is the real illusion in life ? The biggest illusion is that you believe there is an illusion . You, believing in the illusion, is the real illusion . Yes , this belief game is really amazing when you take it to be true . One belief we all have is that we are this body or a mind . We really believe in this and never question this belief system . Thats how powerful this belief game is . We actually dont know who we are but we beleive ourself to be someone and act according to that our whole life.

THE SELF-CENTERDNESS

We all human beings think ourselves to be individuals struggling for own survival as different from the whole context or nature or universe . Each individual think themself to be a separate entity with own world , own feelings ,own thoughts and own life. We judge others the whole day showing everything is alright and then discuss all the frustations with the society with wife , husband , sons and daughters at night and again start the same work the other day . We have limited peoples to share our opinion with and all the

groups think they are unique and are right in their thinking making conflicts within internally and supressing it until the internal conflict change into physical fights and violence . This is within every individual and hence is the product of society , nations and the whole world .

If we look closely all the social , political and global problems of todays world , the only factor responsible is thought , self centered thought . We may say we like to be kind and humble with others and not in the side of violence but still that desire to be kind and humble is from our selfcentered belef that we are separate from others and hence shouldnt really fight with others to feel ownself to be secured and safe . The self centered thoughts are the reason of all distinctions , divisions and conflicts in todays world of religion , cultures and belief .

THE SELFING

The word selfing implies a verb not a noun , which is the act of identifying as a self in every action we do . We always think ourself to be a noun but in fact we are verb. Todays world focused on self-improvement and self-awareness things a lot . We say we wanna improve as a person and to be a better human than tommorrow . These concepts arises when you really feel that you are a person and you need to grow as an individual daily to succed and survive . That may be true but what if the self you think to be you is not real at all?

The simple way to know this is ,ask yourself right now ,‘WHO AM I ?’

You may say ′ I am Shovit ( your name )′ but thats your name, thats not you.

You may say ′ I am this body and mind but that is yours not you ’.

You may even say you are a human being but thats even the way to conceptualize yourself .

Who are you , then ?

Now you can say i dont know who am i . Thats a better answer because there is the possiblity of finding yourself now but not as a person ar a thing but as you , by being it.

THE GAME OF ILLUSION

I beocme a spiritual seeker when i heard this term enlightment which implies to me of being out of sufferings and i started doing practices , meditations and all other spiritual dramas for enf to my suffering but nothing worked as i was wanting something as a self which is created by my thoughts and which is not real at all . But when i heard this message that which can be perceived cannot be perceiving it hits somewhere and has worked till now .

So thats it .

″YOU ARE WHAT YOU BEEN SEARCHING FOR. ″

You as a human being have ears to hear , eyes to see and all other senses to perceive the world . But when we do all actions based on thinking that is from the memory of past , we are stuck in a mind game , trapped in self centered beliefs to protect oneself and looking for security . We wanna play the game safe and protect our future . But the future we wanna protect is merely the projetion of our own imagination and hence no new things can came in life . Actions based on memory of past can never make new things happen and hence trying to play the game as safe as possible we get stuck sometimes and question ; IS THIS REAL? IS THIS ALL THERE IS ?

ofcourse not . But knowing this we try searching the new dimension with our old thinking and start following the spiritual gurus , methods and so on . But again we are stuck in that same old game of searching something in the future and finding satisfaction in the future .Hence again stuck in the thought created reality for rest of our life .

So if we are really interested in finding the truth or reality or god or whatever (words doesnt mean anything ) then rather looking for authority to find the answers ,lets look ourselves .

FINDING YOURSELF

So when we have stopped following the authority and not interested in second hand answers , the only thing we are left with is ourselves and then we begin to observe ourselves in every thing we do . The way we talk with others , the way we walk , the way we behave and most importantly the way we act . In observing ourselves , we may find why we act . Inquiry in self observation can show us how we have been programmed and why we do things we do in the present . Are our actions based on thinking ? Is thinking the cause of division and fragmenation we bring into life ? Rather than looking for answers , lets find it out ourselves .

I have found out in this journey (if we can call it journey )that whatever i do is because of thoughts that pop up in my brain , thoughts which are dead and have no significance at all , thoughts which dont have anything to do with the present scene of my life . So the problem i face in life is merely an imagination annd hence it cant solve my problems at all .

So then when the thoughts have no role to play in the present why do we need those dead things then ? Of course we need memory for our practical works but when it comes to relationship with our family members , friends and the society we live in , it creates problem and conflicts and we all ahve our own ideals to life .So then what is thinking ?

Thinking is always is the present but is starts with the memory of experiences we have from the past . When we start a day and see or hear something without thoughts , the experience of the same thing from past pops off as thoughts in our brain and we start engaging with them and we waste all our energy in those abstract objects the whole day as if they are real and hence are tired af at the end of the day.We giving our interest and attention to those imaginary objects the whole day to make ourselves limited to self-interested actions.

So how to deal with this right ?

May be if the quetion asked with the curosity , it leads to freedom from condionting but if the question is merely the escape from the fact that you dont like this and want other methods for yourself it may lead to another illusion ?

So if we are really aware of our conditioning and are intereted in freeing ourself from this we can go forward , therwise there is no point in going this and adding new glasses to your eyes and adding more illusions to life .

THE PATHLESS PATH ( FREEDOM FROM THE PAST )

So when we have observed ourself in action and have known that the conditioning we have has no role to play in our life, we stop searching the way or the path to freedom . We stop because we know in our own experiences that the searching itself is merely the act of being identified with self-cenetered thoughts and hence breeding more illusions . We stop searching truth in books and authorities and start looking our own desires and the way we live . And may be if we are not acting based on past memory but rather acting thoroughly with the flow of life , living as if we the wave in the ocean we call life not as part of it but as whole of it , we may find ourselves touching the vastness the life possess.

Now we die everyday to our memories , to our identities , to our past experiences and hence dying everyday to the thoughts may make us living as the birds do, as the trees do, as the mother earth do and as the whole universe plays the dance of the form . In dying to the past we may live in the present . We be in the moment knowing we can never be out of the moment and living life as it is not on words , theories , beliefs or ideals .

Some of the quotes that may strike you now so that you dont rely on these afterwards.

“WHATEVER CAN BE PERCIEVED CANNOT BE PERCIEVING. ”

“YOU ARE (LIFE ) WHAT YOU(AS AN INDIVIDUAL) BEEN LOOKING FOR .”

-Shovit Khatiwada