Perfect to Me

You never know if something bad could make something good happen.

~*Jaesoo POV*~

I open my eyes to a bright white light.

Am I in heaven?

“Jaesoo! My baby!”

I guess not.

I look to the left to see my mother looking at me.

“Jaesoo, are you okay baby?” she asked touching my cheek.

I was surprised to see my mom since she’s always away for business.

I missed her.

I look around the hospital room.

Stuffed toys, gift bags, and chocolates on a long table.

I sit up and notice a cast on my right arm.

“W-whe-” before I could say anything my heart started beating fast against my chest painfully.

I take a deep breath and my heart calms down.

“Honey, your sisters got you gifts!” she said excitedly getting the bags and boxes.

“Open them.” She said and sat them on the bed.

The first one I opened was a green and white striped box. I took off the lid and picked up the card.

Hey sis,

I really miss you. I wanted to get you something for when you wake up before you get the bad news and because you missed your birthday.

-Love Jaeha aka your older sis

What bad news?

I open the box and see a picture.

A picture of our family before. When our parents were still together.

When our brother was still alive.

I was 7, Jaeha was 17, Jaeho and Hajae were 5, Soojae was 6 and Hojae was 8.

We were on a picnic.

We were happy.

I feel a tear fall from my eye.

I hurry and wipe it away and sniff.

I put the framed picture beside me and move on to the next gift.

It was a bag. A yellow bag with white polka-dots on it.

Definitely Hajae.

I take out the card first.

Big sis,

I miss you. You missed your 18th birthday.

You said on your 18th birthday you would have a giant party but when you wake up, I’ll help you throw the biggest party ever!

-’lil Sis

P.S. The yellow box is from me and the brown box and books are from dad.

P.P.S. Don’t let mom see dad’s gift for you or she’ll destroy it.

I take the yellow box from the bag and leave the other things.

I open the box and see a locket. I open it and see a picture of Hajae and me.

I smile putting it on.

Next was a very large box. It was from Soojae.

He’s always so extra.

The note was on top of the box. I open it.

Jaesoo wake up!

Without you no one is home to protect me. Hajae, Jaeho, and Jaeha keep bullying me. I also miss you. I know you don’t really like girly things so I bought you a dagger. Don’t show mom. I also know that you like taking pictures, so I also got you 5 different cameras. These things were hella expensive. 449154.50₩($395.23) to be exact. Luckily you’re my favorite sibling. I only spent like 22742₩ ($20) on the others. Don’t show mom the Dagger or she’ll take it away. Please wake up soon, love you.

-Your Favorite

I open the box and see the five cameras.

Next to the cameras was a black box. Probably the dagger.

I didn’t open it since my mom was in the room.

I look over to her and see her on the phone.

I sigh and open the last gift. A bag.

There was a small card.

Dear sis,

I hope you wake up soon, I miss you. I know Soojae got you some polaroid cameras, so I got you scrapbooks. 1 for family, 1 for friends, 1 for you, and 1 for your boyfriend. I know you don't have one yet, but when you find the love of your life, keep memories and pics with him. I love and miss you so much, get well soon.

-Love, Jaeho

I put all of the gifts back in the bags and boxes and put them on the floor next to my bed.

"Hello Ms. Ahn. I am your Therapist, Dr.Kwon." A man said to me.

"H-h-" I tried to say 'hi' to him but as soon as I heard myself, I felt extreme fear.

My hands started shaking and my heart started beating extremely fast.

I started feeling like I couldn't breath.

"Mr. Ahn take deep breathes." Dr.Kwon told me.

It took about 4 minutes, but the pain eventually went away.

"Ms. Ahn, you shouldn't talk. Do you have a want to not talk to anyone?" He asked.

I nod.

It's like my body doesn't want me to talk but I don't know why.

"Are you aware that you've woken up 4 different times having panic attacks?" He asks

I shake my head.

"Listen, You have selective mutism. It means you choose to not talk because of fear or anxiety. You may be nervous in crowds and may have panic attacks trying to talk. I have prescribed you anxiety meds. Take them whenever you go to places with large crowds. But only take 2 a day. Do you get all of this?" He asked.

I nod.

//13 days later//

~In the car~

Today is the day I go home.

At the hospital, they made me take therapy sessions until now.

The last session was when all the staff in the hospital went into one room and I had to be in the middle of them.

I felt afraid but I just took deep breaths and kept calm.

I passed so that was my ticket home.

The bad thing is that my mom has went on yet another business trip and I have school tomorrow.

Apparently, while I was in a coma, we moved to Seoul from Busan.

//3 hours later//

I pull up to a giant house. It was even bigger than our old house.

I got out of the car and see all 4 of my siblings standing at the door smiling.

My bodyguards get all of my things and take them into the house.

I walked to my brothers and sisters and they all piled up hugging me.

We all laughed hugging each other.

Even though they visited me in the hospital everyday, now they get to see me out of hospital robes.

"We know you can't talk, so we won't pressure you." Jaeha said as we walked inside.

I nod and smile.

We get inside and I look around.

There's a large golden Chandelier over the living room with sparkling diamonds hanging on it.

There was a nice white living room.

They took me to a large room.

It was plain so I guess I'll decorate it later.

I put my things in the drawers.

I open the closet and see 7 different uniforms and 3 pairs of shoes.

Yay! school.

I put my jacket in the closet and change into pajamas.

It's the middle of the day but I'll sleep. I have school tomorrow anyways.

I get into my soft bed and let the darkness consume me.

~*~*~*~*~

Hello! This is a kinda sad-happy story since Taetae is Deaf and Jaesoo is A Selective Mute.

I will update more storise at onec since...

I want to.

Well thanks for reading them.

See ya, Love ya, Bye!