Benny

As the cold water swam over my feet a shiver ran up my back. We were at the beach for a nice family vacation, and I wasn't feeling great. As I stood on the beach in my bathing suit I felt naked. I didn't want to be in a bathing suit, or at the beach. I hated the way that I looked, and the way that I felt. I would do anything to be a normal weight.

A lot of people didn't realize that I was overweight, I was more of a skinny fat. I was almost 200 pounds and only 15. I constantly checked websites all over google to see what I should weight. Everytime they said that I should be 120-150 pounds. I don't know why I kept checking because it was always a disappointment. My BMI on the other hand was always off the charts.

I was so jealous of everyone else in my family. I didn't understand why everyone else looked so good. I ate the same things that they did, yet I was still so much heavier than they were. If I didn't use a scale maybe I would feel differently, but I always came back to it. 194.6, 192.3, 199.3, it always stayed up in the 190's.

"Benny, come look at this!" exclaimed my little cousin Beatrice. I was ripped from my thoughts and taken back to reality. "What is it?" I responded nonchalantly. "It's a little crab!" her voice was filling up with excitement as I walked toward her. The crab did look cool, I did have to give her that. "Wow, how cool, Bea!" I said mimicking her excitement.

I looked back down at the crab, I wondered why animals always stayed at a reasonable weight. Maybe it's because they know how to avoid processed foods. The only part of processed food they have to deal with is the plastic. I envied the crab. I stopped dead in my thoughts... did I just say I envied a crab?! That's when I knew something had to change.