Where my downfall started...
5 years before
"Dad"
"Dad where are you?"
"Guess what"
"I've gone and done it"
"What is it sweetheart"
"I'm going to law school!"
"Well done sweetie I'm so proud of you I knew you could do it"
"Your mum would be so proud"
With the mention of my mum my eyes started filling with hot tears my mum died when I was 10 now 8 years later it still doesn't get any better, it still hurts like it was only yesterday I remember sitting in the the hospital waiting room waiting to hear if my mum was going to be alright I hoped and I prayed but it just wasn't enough she died that arsehole killed her a drunk hit and run he just left her bleeding out in the dark on the cold wet pavement all on her own he broke my family apart I will never be whole again
"Thanks dad I hope she will I miss her so much it breaks me to know she's not here with us anymore and it breaks me I'm not going to be around to help support you maybe I should decline the offer and stay here to help you"
"what no no no your mum wouldn't want you to give up your dream of becoming a big fancy lawyer I'm going to be just fine sweetheart"
"I'm going to law school"
2 weeks later...
My whole life came to a stop I couldn't believe what I was hearing I froze didn't know what to say all I did was cry everything went in to a haze I don't even know how I got to the hospital here I am sat in the same waiting room it honestly felt like deja vu i can't lose my dad I can't my head in my hands I was shaking uncontrollably I haven't cried like this since my mum died what the hell am I gonna do if he don't survive they said he had cancer I thought he was healthy well as healthy as he could be for a guy his age but they also said he knew how the hell did he keep this from me I'm honestly so angry at him how could he not tell his own daughter
How could the world be so cruel they've already taken my mum now they are gonna take my dad I know they are what will I do I have no one else
A doctor finally come to talk to me and they said there was nothing they could do but make him comfortable my whole world come crumbling around me I slid down the wall my tears were uncontrollable I was well and truly broken how was I going to go In to his room and see the only man I ever loved wasting away I'm angry at him for not telling but I don't want it to be my last feeling towards him I had to swallow it and get in there and muscle up the courage to say goodbye to the strongest man I ever known he picked me up after mum died who's gonna pick me up when he leaves me?
I finally got up from the ground my legs shaking barely keeping me up I stumbled in to his room both our eyes locked and I knew he felt bad for not telling me I could hear his monitor beeping beside him he didn't look like the man he did 2 weeks ago he now looked pale almost yellow with all wires sticking out of him and it broke my heart.
none of us spoke for what felt like an eternity until my dad finally broke the silence and he whispered to me
"I'm sorry Perrie"
" I just didn't want to be the reason you didn't go to law school"
"Cut the crap dad"
"I needed you to be truthful with me I thought we had that kind of relationship that tells each other everything no matter how hard it was
After everything we have been though dad seriously"
" I know and I'm sorry I just didn't want to be weak in front of you I'm supposed to be your support network not the other way round
"I didn't want you to find out like this I promise I was gonna tell you I thought I had longer it seems it has progressed"
"Dad what am I gonna do without you" I sat there I couldn't keep it in anymore I tried to keep strong for him but I just was never good at holding my emotions in
"I can't live without you I really can't"
"Sweetheart your going to be okay your going to become a big fancy ass lawyer your gonna get married have some kids and your gonna get on with your life I don't want you to cry for me I will always be in your heart right next to your mother and we are gonna be looking down on you smiling you will always be our little girl so stop them tears honey and be brave I know you can your a strong independent woman
listen I love you so much I'm so proud of the young kick ass woman you have become please never change"
"I love you dad"
"Stop your crying I want you to be happy I need you to tell me your going to be okay please be happy pez"
"I'll try dad I promise"
His finally words to me were " your mothers waiting for me now you be a good girl I love you so much I'm so proud of you Perrie goodbye my sweet angel"
"Dad no I need extra time this isn't fair I need you please don't go"
With that all the nurses come rushing in and told me he had gone they unhooked him from the machine and turned to me and said take your time saying goodbye miss Evans
I honestly couldn't believe he was gone both my parents had left me I was completely alone...
Authors notes....
hey readers..
firstly I would like to thank everyone that has taken the time to read my story
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