The First Chapter
This first memory is from fourth grade. I used to be friends with the girl named Maddy. She was, and still is, the richest girl in school. I didn't have many friends at the time. Then, she accepted me like I was as nicely dressed as her. Not just her, but her group, too. About five or six people. At the time, I couldn't believe that I, the girl that had almost no one, had them. One word can change your life, I guess. Mine was yes. Powerful word.
Maddy wasn't there a couple of days later, so I decided to sit alone at lunch. I always felt like a rabbit surrounded by coyotes and one alpha. The blond haired boy sat by me, but not too close. They started gossiping and joking about why I was sitting alone. I glared at the boy. He scoffed and continued his conversation. Later, I got up to leave. He stopped me with only a couple words. It's been two years, so I'm going to be off, but his words were along the lines of,"Are you alright?"
I ignored him and kept walking. After all, I did hate him. Maddy didn't come back for a couple of days. I always sat in the same spot. So did he. One by one, his friends stopped sitting by him. He had a couple. We exchanged glances. Soon, we had a meaningless conversation.
We talked about our favorite shows, foods, most decent cafeteria food, it was meaningless, but it made me hate him less. A lot less. I played with him that week. We played Sandmonster, basketball, catch, tag, he even convinced me to get on the swing. It was fun. I was also a lot less stressed now that I wasn't around Maddy's group.
When Maddy did come back, she saw me talking to Torrian at breakfast. I ignored her, and she decided to play that game called revenge. During the first recess, I decided to play one more round of Sandmonster with Torrian before going back to my usual routine. Or so I thought.
While I was It, she came to our game and started to talk to me. Something about how my week was without her, and how I was fine even when she wasn't there, that kind of stuff. I rolled my eyes and got back to trying to tag the others. Eventually, she just stopped talking and stormed off. Every once in a while, I would catch her gaze. She scared me at the time. After all, she was a lot taller than me. Instead of keeping my eyes on her, I decided to keep my eyes on whoever was It. Most of the time, it was me, so I tried to focus on Torrian. It wasn't the easiest task in the world. Although, now it's a game I play to keep calm when I want to scream in anger, frustration, or confusion.
Soon after, Maddy started a club that lost her friends, so she called it off. Not surprisingly, she gained her group back in just a couple days. I guess I dodged a bullet.
Two years can change a lot. Now, Maddy has some of her friends, some new ones, she's still rich, and we hate each other. As I've said, I am now always with Torrian and Andrew or Sena and Giezel. We still play Sandmonster, basketball, catch, all that fun stuff. Although, I haven't been on a swing since we first met. Captivated yet? No? It gets better.
