I Needed That...

This poem is about my first dog, Chui, being put down. In my English class, we had to write a narrative poem, and I, being the extra mess that I am, decided to write about an extremely depressing topic. I got a fantastic grade on this with a teacher's note saying, "Beautiful work, although next time I would appreciate it if you don't make me cry while grading poems."

I sat in the car,

Tears streaming down my face

Silent

So very silent

I cradled him in my arms

My sweet dog

My sweet Chui

He had to get put down

He was in pain

He had to get put down

My parents offered to let me stay

In the car

All alone

Alone with the silence

Alone with the tears

I went with them anyway

I held my Chui

In my arms

Tears still coming down

The vet led the three of us

Into a small white room

With a cushioned table

And four chairs

The poor vet had to fight with me

I wouldn’t let my Chui go

Finally, after crying had weakened me

They took my baby away

My sweet dog

My sweet Chui

I curled into a teary ball,

Still crying in my chair

Moments felt like hours

Eventually, the vet broke the silence

“He’s gone.”

My heart cracked,

The tears weren’t silent anymore

Nothing mattered anymore

Nothing

Only the fact

That my sweet baby,

My sweet dog,

My sweet Chui

Was gone