CHAPTER ONE
LIFE ENDS BUT LOVE DOESN’T
Today has also passed, but I failed to find her. As usual, I lost my hope and have started going towards home. Suddenly the strong winds started moving and her sketch flew away from my hands. I was trying to run and take it, but I saw that a person whose age would be around 50 years old, he took that sketch and started looking closely. I went near to him and asking him about that sketch. But the person was lost after that seeing that sketch, after giving my voice, he did not give any attention to me. I stopped for a while and saw that tears were coming from his eyes. Before I ask something he said that “Son, do you love this girl ...?”
I still remember that day when I saw her for the first time. That morning I was not yet awake from sleep, but the sunlight had awakened me. The sweet sound of bird was humming in my ears. I was lost in that sweet sound. Suddenly the louder aggressive voice I heard “Do you still sleeping ? It’s your first day of college and you will be late, get up now”. Somehow I woke up and got ready for college. There was a lot of happiness in my heart and why would it not be because it’s my first day of college. I reached to the bus stop and started waiting for the bus. Then suddenly the wind started blowing and she was going from there. I do not know what was so special about her at that first glance I fell in love with her. It felt like everything has stopped. My heart is started beating very fast. An unusual feeling of missing someone was started growing in my heart. Only her hope has joined in my heart. I wanted to get her. I wanted to love her. My heart was dying to see her again. I thought to talk to her, but at the same time my bus arrived and I had to leave.
I did not feel nice in college, I was missing the same moment again and again. Thinking about her was making me crazy. When college finished, I started going back home. My heart was want to see her again, but nothing like this has happened. That night, I felt and came to know for the first time what a LOVE is. There was a different uneasiness. There was a different feeling. Someone unknown was feeling like a closer to me. I want to love her, I want to get her. I did not know how all my night has passed in her thoughts. I waked up early in the morning and got ready quickly and I went to the bus stop before time. I stood there for long time but she did not came. My bus arrived but she did not came. I did not feel good that day, just started thinking about her. I thought I would get her on my way back, but nothing like this has happened. I did not feel like good. Her thought was coming in my heart again and again.
When it was night, I miss her more and I was trying to sleep but could not sleep. I got some sleep in the morning and I had a dream of her. Even today, when I recall that dream, I get goosebumps. I saw in the dream that she is no more. After seeing that dream, I got very sacred. I began to think and persecute and thinking about her because of this my nervousness started growing. And I decided that I will tell her everything when she will meet me tomorrow.
In the morning I reached there but she did not came. I waited for her for very long time but she did not appeared. Now I started realizing my dream and it was forcing me to accept my dream as reality. That dream was started bothering me. I kept going for several days but I could not find any news about her. I thought that I should ask nearby people about her but I did not know her name and also I did not have any picture of her with me.
I would have forget her if I want to, but I do not know why I did not feel good while forgetting her. Whenever I tried to forget her, I always had the same dream again and again. I want find her and want to confess my all feelings and also that dream to her. Then I made a sketch. I tried to find her everywhere in every way possible. I have only one feeling in my heart that someone might get me and my restless heart get a little bit happiness. I tried hard so many times but I did not get any traces of her. I kept asking so many people but nobody was aware of her.
Today has also passed, but I failed to find her. As usual, I lost my hope and have started going towards home. Suddenly the strong winds started moving and her sketch flew away from my hands. I was trying to run and take it, but I saw that a person whose age would be around 50 years old, he took that sketch and started looking closely. I went near to him and asking him about that sketch. But the person was lost after that seeing that sketch, after giving my voice, he did not give any attention to me. I stopped for a while and saw that tears were coming from his eyes. Before I ask something he said that “Son, do you love this girl ...?”
