Chapter 1
Start writing here…I never thought that one day I'll also pray to live like everyone else.
In my whole life I've lived like a living corpse. Though I was breathing, I wasn't alive.
I was already dead when I had to give up my dreams for some unreachable satisfactions, hope and wish.
Each day I prayed, "If only I was dead. If only I didn't exist in the first place. If only time would turn back."
But my wishes never came true.
I was too afraid to end everything so I had to keep going.
I used to think, "When will my time end?"
But now that thought has changed.
Now it became, "Why will my time end?"
And you are the reason for which my wish has changed.
I know I'm being selfish right now for not letting go of your hand even though there's no hope left.
But still I don't want you to let go.
I want you to wait for me a little longer and stay by my side till it really ends.
We both know that I don't have much time left but still, if you stay beside me I'll be grateful even though our story will have an unhappy end.
Do you still remember how our story began?
Maybe you think that wasn't a good start but for me it was a great end of my colorless world.
You were the only person who brought colors to my life which was made colorless by others.
You were the first to reach out your hand without any selfish thought.
But I was so broken that I didn't have the courage to hold on to that hand.
When I realized, it was already too late.
I tried to hold but my fate didn't give me the chance.
