Prologue
I closed my eyes replaying the special moment that has just occurred. I finally gave my virginity away to the man I was sure I'll be spending forever with.
I never thought I would give away my virginity so soon I always thought that I was going to save it til my wedding night. I look to my left to see Jason smiling at me, " I love you " ,he whispers. I knew right then that I'd made a good choice, this is the man I'm going to marry. " I love you too ", I whispered smiling.
But never had I thought that this wasn't forever. That Jason was just playing with my heart like it was nothing. I actually thought that we were forever. But how wrong I was ...
Two days later...
I've been trying to call Jason but he's not answering the phone. I wanted to see him this afternoon before I go to school tomorrow, since I was visiting my best friend and they live close to each other, I thought that maybe I should just go and surprise him.
I saw him leaving the yard with his friends, " hey sweets where you headed to? " I asked. "hey babe, I'm just going out with my friends. What are you doing here?" he frowned. I looked at his friends and saw amused expressions on their faces. I felt confused as to what was going on. " I just came to check up on you, you haven't been answering the phone" ,I shrugged. I felt awkward, because his friends were snickering like it was something funny. I looked at Jason and he wasn't looking at me, he looked down and was rubbing the back of his neck and said "I'll see you when I come back, OK? " I nodded and walked away back to my friends house.
It's been 2 weeks since I've last heard from him. My bestie Estrella has been telling me that there's been different types of girls going to his house. I really didn't want to jump into conclusions, I wanted to hear from him what's going on. Though deep down in my heart I knew that what we had was a one time thing.
Today is my last exam, I decided that I was going to his house and confront him about this situation. I couldn't concentrate during my last paper, my head was spinning.
Later that day I got to his house and knocked on the door. He opened the door and stood there shirtless his black curls messy. He sighed and said, " what are you doing here? " I felt hurt, I just wanted to curl up and cry. I blinked away the hot tears that were threatening to fall down my face. " what the hell do you mean, what am I doing here?! " ,I yelled angrily at him. " you were supposed to see me 2 weeks ago! You haven't called me in the last 2 weeks! And now you ask me what am I doing here? I've been worried sick about you and this is what I get? I've heard stories of you bringing girls here and I didn't want to believe it! Please all I need to hear is that all of that is a lie, please", I said hitting his chest and letting the tears fall.
"Cora listen... " he started. " OMG! J-just s-stop, it's true isn't it? " I looked at him through blurry eyes. There was no emotion on his face, the love I saw in those eyes once was all gone. "yes it's true", he sighed. " so what we were was just a joke to you? " I screamed. " no Cora if you could just listen to me... " he sighed. " listen to you!? To what how I was just a girl you just had to fuck? "I asked backing away. " it's not like that", he tried touching my arm, I just pushed him back and ran... I heard him yell my name but I couldn't care any less about what he wanted to say.
I woke up the next morning with the urge to puke. I ran to the bathroom and puked, my mother came in and held my hair back. I told her everything of what happened with Jason and she didn't judge me, she listened and held me as I cried. I got up and started puking even more. " sweetheart, I think you should take a pregnancy test, just to be sure. " my mom suggested. I nodded my head, she went out of the bathroom and came back with a pregnancy test. I peed on the stick, as we waited my mom and I sat on my bed. "no matter what happens just know your father and I are here for you, OK darling. " I nodded my head. After a few minutes we checked the results. It's positive!!
That's how I lost my virginity at the age of 18 to a 23 year old and got pregnant with a beautiful baby boy...
