Chapter One - Moving Day.
I sat there waiting and waiting for Sam to arrive. Punctuality was always his thing. Never late and never off his phone, so the unanswered phone calls and texts were a sign he wasn’t coming.
After 2 hours I finally gave up. I’m moving away tomorrow and he isn’t coming to say goodbye. Sam and I decided that it wouldn’t work long distance, since I have to move to London for my dads new promotion and tonight was our chance to say goodbye.
I take one last look at our tree, the place we spent most of our time together, our place. “Goodbye Sam.”
As I get into my car and drive away I cant help but watch the tree in my mirror get smaller and smaller, this is actually happening, I’m actually leaving my entire life behind. This. Is. Crazy!
On the drive home I just cant help but imagine what would have happened if I stayed, Sam and I could have grown old together, had children, travelled, we could have had an amazing life together.
I go home and get straight into bed. I take out my diary like I do every night and begin to write; Dear Sam, I know you’ll never see this but I wanted to say goodbye properly. “You gave me the most amazing 6 years, you loved me in a way I didn’t think was possible. You showed me the type of love that I deserve and for that Sam I will never forget you. I hope you find everything you’re looking for and the most amazing girl comes along and makes you just as happy as you made me.
Tomorrow is about new beginnings, its about making a new life for myself, I can be anybody I want to be. Just like we always talked about, a fresh start. You will always be in my heart Sam. I love you always, goodbye Sam.”
Plan for tomorrow:
Move to London.
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I wake up to the sound of the moving fans pulling into the drive way and I instantly feel sick. Today is moving day. I walk down stairs and see my Dads beaming face
“Good morning Biscuit”
“Good morning Dad”, I try to fake a smile but I think he can tell.
Then he just continues packing boxes into the van.
We get all the boxes in the van and take one last look at the house, my childhood memories begin to flash through my mind, all of the memories with Sam come flooding in and I just can’t help but cry. My Dad wraps his arms around me,
“Come on Biscuit, this is a good thing”. I wipe the tears from my face and get in the backseat.
The whole drive there my Dad keeps trying to convince me how amazing this move is going to be,
“Think of all the friends your going to make in your new school.”
“There was nothing wrong with my old friends and my old school!”
“I’m sorry we had to move. But we did have to move and there is nothing we can do to change that. Your mother isn’t around anymore and we needed a fresh start.”
“I know Dad, it’s just hard, leaving all your friends behind, leaving Sam behind.”
“Sam and all of your friends can come and visit, you don’t have to leave anyone behind forever.”
“You don’t get it Dad.”
We pull up at the door after what felt like a year of driving, I look up to see a huge bright red door. My Dad puts his hand on my back and nudges me,
“Go pick your room biscuit”.
I run in the front door, drop my bags and straight up the stairs. Which room is the biggest? For a minute I actually feel excited.
I search all of the upstairs and finally find some hidden stairs in the ceiling and climb up them to the biggest room I’ve ever seen.
“ITS HUGE DAD” I shout from upstairs. I grab some boxes and do my best to make this new home feel as close to our old life as I can.
After hours of rearranging I finally climb into bed and pull out my diary, I cant help but address it to Sam as he’s the only person I want to talk to.
“Dear Sam, I done it, I moved to London. I’m here, I’m safe but I’m lonely, my Dad’s busy working on his presentation for his new job tomorrow and tomorrow is my first day of school and I’m so worried that I won’t make any friends…. I wish I could phone you and hear you tell me that ‘everything will be okay’. I miss you Sam…
Plan for tomorrow:
Smile
Make friends
Get to know the school
IGNORE ALL BOYS.
