prologue
Meeting you wasn't my decision, falling in love was beyond my expectation, but choosing to stay was definitely my choice. Destiny is something i never believed in, love was something i made fun of--look at me now, the love which i used to mock, i'm yearning for it.
Time passes by, every second without you feels like a eternity, i don't know how long shall i wait, but i know i'll meet you again. Your my warmth in this cold winter, and now you're gone, i miss you-- no matter how much i say this, i know---know that you'll not come back to me cause love is not a free pass--it is something--something that has to be earned. Love is unexpected but when you fall in love-- you feel many types of emotions-- hate, jealousy, sadness, happiness, pain-- it's a hard stage, if you win it's yours, if you lose try again or leave it--It's your decision, if it's you-- i'll do it all again, go through the pain once again to find you again.
I'm crying because i miss a part of my self, which is you-- you made my heartbeat, even without you i'm still alive--just alive, no emotions. My body can live without you but i know i can't, your the key to my emotions, your the reason i smile, cry, laugh and now you're gone.
'i love you', these simple words made my heart beat fast. I love your smile, eyes, nose, ears-- i love all of you, just like how you loved all of me. I loved how you messed up the kitchen and how we cleaned it, i miss it so much, i used to tell you to stop messing with my kitchen as a joke, now i want you to mess with it however you want to-- I miss you so much.
We both are looking at the same moon, from a different window. You might not think of me when you look at it, but the moon reminds me of you. So beautiful, yet so far, i miss you.
I lost you, only to find you once again. Cause memories can be forgotten but-- feelings can't.
My heartbeat Kim Taehyung
