The start
I laid underneath those bright fluorescent lights that fix themselves so snug in the spotty white tiles off the ceiling.
Smell of disinfectant and lemon filled my lungs of every Skittish breath I tried to take.
The sound of people chatting in the distance in the hallway and the annoying beeping that keeps me awake at night kept in slow steady pace some more like a beat too slow song.
The sheets that kept me tucked in bed felt so rough like they could break so easily with a small pull but I guess the nurses here like me because they gave me the thick wooly blue blanket it felt so heavy on my body like another human being been pressed against mine or like when your pet decides to have a snooze on your lap.
The voices suddenly changed very quickly and sounded like shouting I like to see what was happening but it wasnt happening in my door view, it was happening a few doors down from mine and then I heard it the sound of of constant ringing sadly if you been here as long as I have you sort of get used to that sound.
The sound of the beeping or the constant beeping (I dont like to use the D word to me it like a swear word), and the sound of people crying you here the Crying from people who get told their diagnosis ,the people who get the good news and the families and friends when the constant beeping.
Sometimes you will hear the Crying from the nurses or doctors it just depends if they get to know the patients were enough.
See me, I have been in this room for 4 months 2 weeks and 3 days.
When I was first diagnosed I was able to live in the real world the people and the and to go to school but after two years of treatment my body couldnt fight infections no more so I ended up here and now the doctor and the nurses and the orderlies had become my friends and family.
In 5-minutes and 32 seconds my wonderful nurse nurse Susie will be in to check on me and give me my poison for the day.
I know what your thinking
where your family
wheres your real friends?
Well I have become a child of the state when I was 2 years old my mother and father were killed by drunk driver and they had no family as they met in a children home and as soon as they turned 18 they moved out and start a life together.
It will be there 12th anniversary of their death in 2 months.
About the friends situation I have changed Foster families and children time so often I stop trying to make friends at school long time ago
Nurse Susie is here now and she wanted me to let you guys to know that she says hi.
First she turns off the old drip that is in my port in my chest and unscrews it from the empty bag hanging above me then hangs the new one up and screwed everything back in.
She says she would stay longer to hang out but sadly because there a death in Room 148 Mr Rogers room there is too much paperwork to do and not enough time.
Nurse Susie is a very short woman she even shorter than me she has dirty blonde hair tucked away in a tight bun held together with brown Bobby pins. She has these large blue Ocean eyes that always seem to be like she is staring at a gorgeous ocean at sunset.
She has an oval face with a sharp chin and small lips always coated in a polished pink lipstick.
Susie said she never been married but she loves her partner and has done so for the last eight years she wishes to get married but they are waiting, waiting for what I do not know.
I love the name Susie I wish I had such a simple name like that.
My name is Anne my parents called me Annalise Anna for short after Anne Frank.
Has Susie left she got around to be facing me an evil smirk on her face with those words I just wish you forget to remember Anna your birthday in only 12 days
And she galloped away.
my birthday, she always wants to remind me, it was same last year, I guess itsbecause I be turning 15 and that such an amazing age according to Susie
Me! I dont see the big deal, big whoops; Ill be turning 15 it not like it going to matter they all know why and they all know my future.
