I wish we had a second chance at forever.
The sun is setting and my heart is heavy. I miss you. I can still feel your arms around me. Seems like yesterday we were laughing and planning the future. Your smell lingers. It’s a reminder that you’re gone. I can’t touch you again.
I can still remember the sound of your voice. Your voice was the melody to my heart and now it’s gone. I wish you were here to tell me that everything is okay, but you’re gone. Why did you leave me? I wasn’t ready for this.
I love you and I hate you. You didn’t give me enough time. I know one day that you will start to fade and that’s even more terrifying. I don’t want to forget the touch of your hand against my cheek. I don’t want to forget the warmth of your body next to mine.
I was always there, but I never knew. How did I not know? As upset as I am with you, I am even madder at myself. I should have known. I should have seen the pain behind your smile. I should have seen the hurt in your heart. I should have done more. Did you think that no one cared?
I cared, I loved you. You were the light of my life. I miss your smile. I miss the way you use to hold me when I was scared. You would tell me that everything was okay and that you would never leave. You lied.
When I close my eyes at night, I see the pain. I see what you did. It will haunt me for the rest of my life. I will always remember the phone call I had to make. The sound of pure agony haunts me to this day.
I wasn’t ready to say goodbye. We should have had more time. There should have been a tomorrow. Now I’m left with this ache in my heart. I’m left with an empty space where you use to be. I just want your hand in mine again.
I cried into your family’s shoulders. I’m not okay. I can’t accept this. You promised me you would be here and now you’re gone. I can’t stop dreaming about who we could have been. You were my addiction.
You had had me. I was by your side and would have gone to the ends of the earth for you. I could have believed for both of us. I could have been strong for both of us. Life is unfair, I know that better than most now.
It’s too late now. It’s too late to fight for us. I feel like I’m drowning in the silence of this empty house. The halls are filled with memories. I want to feel your heartbeat again. I can’t bring you back. I wish that I could. I wish we had a second chance at forever.
I wish I could turn back time, even if it was just to say goodbye. You didn’t let me say goodbye. Why didn’t you let me say goodbye? What did I do wrong? All I can think about is you. I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. My heart is broken and it will never be the same again.
The brokenness is a horrible feeling. Do you see how much pain you caused everyone? You must have been in so much pain. Why didn’t you let me help? I sit here asking myself all these questions that I will never have answers to. I know I’ll never have the answers, but for now, it’s all I have. It’s all you left me because you left me. You left me..........
