Chapter 1
The sun was peeking from the canopy of trees that she lay under. A soft breeze tracing her soft skin as I rolled in the grass deep in my fantasies . The sounds of the newly mated couple in the pool area were muffles by whistling of trees ,but with her wolf’s hearing she could hear everything every moan every giggle everything .
This was her favorite spot in her whole pack and one of the few things that actually brought her joy in her strict boring pack ,all sorts of joys were forbidden for unmated wolves . She was now 23 summers old , most werewolves were mated with a pup or expecting a pup at her age . She practically had no friends, her agemates were mated , she could no longer run , dine , talk with them . Now all that was left of amazing friendships was a nod to each other during pack meetings .
She once had a walk with her best friend pretending to help her carry her bags , Jinie’s mate did not find it amusing and the elders even less so , her rights to a private room in the fem-pack house were revoked she had to sleep in the hall with the other newly turned females. They were 16-18 summers old and having her there was bad , apparently they thought she had a bad luck cloud since she was unmated at her age .
The younger she wolfs took it upon themselves to starve for three days until she was returned to her own room . In their defense they were very nice to her always . Thinking on it deeply they were probably afraid she would tell the elders of the erotic novels and stories they shared at night . She was a bit too old to still be unmated .
This fact always hung above her head everywhere she went except under that canopy , there she was anyone she wanted to be , her first orgasm had been under those trees , her first rule was broken under those trees.
A mumble of her name had her perk up and pull her covering dress over her bikini ,which was also not allowed for unmated females , they had swimming suits that covered all skin above the knees and she hated it with a passion . she loved feeling the water on her bare skin .
“Tallie!” The elders voice came again . She couldn’t help but roll her eyes she hated her full name preferred Tana , it was less weird . Emerging from her little heaven she ran toward the voice no wanting anyone to find her spot.
Had she been keen she would have seen the omens warning her of the tribulations on the way.
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This was absolutely ridiculous , she was 23 ,she’d had lesson on what to expect when you mate ,how to mark , how to please a mate for 7 years since she shifted at 16 , It made no sense why the elders insisted she still attend the classes . It was awkward learning with the wide eyed younglings .
It was to deepen her shame that was all it was , a sadistic way to shame for something that was not her fault . Her last agemate to be here left about six months ago , she opted to go to breeder training . Her head hung low as she packed her things that cloudy morning.
“Staying here will drive me nuts , I am bringing my family shame by being here this long I’m 25 Tana , I really must accept I have no mate , you keep holding on , do what I can not .” Maya said the night before . The two she wolfs slept crying in each others arms .
“Cheer up , I get to bring pups into the world, I get to be a functioning member of a pack ,who knows I may meet my mate on my way ” Those were her last words to me . I chased the truck that was taking her away till the Green waters pack boundaries .
I barely heard what was being taught my head was too caught up in my thoughts , breeding was not an option for me . I promised Maya I would hold on , I would find my mate . I was still absent minded as I ate lunch i did not see my family till they were next to me . I had avoided them for the last year .
My mother gave me a small smile , They had news . Looking up I didn’t have to be told ,my brother found his mate , I could see the guilt in his eyes , they were lo w cast as if he needed to apologize to his older sister for getting his mate before her .
I chuckled and hugged him tight telling him congratulations , my mother broke into a sob and I hugged her too , my father just mumbled you should talk before leading my brother away , the non mated females that were not family were to close for comfort.
“mom, stop crying , please .” I led her to a bench away from other wolves eating in the garden .
“Talie , my beautiful sun ” She started and i knew I had to cut this conversation short before it became a long story of mates and moons and happiness with advice that i probably wouldn’t implement.
“I’m okay mom , I have to go I have errands for the fem-pack house , I love you , I will visit soon ”
“No ... I need for you to listen , at times you have to make yourself a mate . You can do it’s been done not just by alpha born males and females .Ordinary wolfs like you mateless they can you jus....”
I can’t help the hurt in my eyes at her use of the word an insult that my soul would always be alone , I try to mask it quick and she notices trying to apologize ,to say she didn’t mean to use the crude word .
I push myself away my wolf curling in my head her safe space alone I kiss my mothers cheek and with that I headed to the pack bus stop , I had a pass to the town , the elders had sent me to buy supplies , I loved the idea of seeing new faces , I’ve never been into town alone before and I was excited I was also hurt and bound to self sabotage .
The bus that ferries pack members is empty today ,it’s mid day so not much movement is done . I sit at the very back looking at the rolling trees shift into street lights and buildings , the green fields replaced with colorful cars, wolves , humans , witches and the occasional healers . I watch eyes full of wonder waiting for the traffic lights to turn green .
This gives me time to compose myself before leaving the bus which was now my shield . The list of errands held tightly in sweaty palms and the packs gold coins in the tiny bag I had on my thighs .
Curling the straps of the bag around my waist I step into the street waving the driver a man I saw most of my life and heading to the nearest shop
Trouble is just around the corner . Things are about to get dark .
Hope you enjoyed the first chapter . Don’t judge the book just yet .
More chapters are coming.
