𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐃 𝐑𝐄𝐃 𝐑𝐎𝐒𝐄𝐒 ── tsukikage

THE TEAM WAS GATHERED in the gym as normal after their classes ended. “Hey, guys!” Yamaguchi said to the team. “What’s up Yamaguchi?” Daichi asked. “I and Tsukki have an announcement!” He said happily. The tall blond with glasses didn’t really look too pleased.

“I and Tsukki are together!“. Those few words. Just those words alone made a ravenette’s world come crashing down. His heart hurt hearing that. That’s when the doubt starting crashing into him once again.

Why would he love a stupid KING like me?

Yamaguchi is so much better than me for him.

He doesn’t even like me. I had no chance from the beginning.

He quietly congratulated them and went back to his independent practice. His chest tightens as he felt his heart thumping against his chest. He tried to suffocate the feelings knowing they would never be returned.

The faster he rid of them the faster he wouldn’t have to think about it anymore. The same words kept playing in his mind. He forced them into his mind.

I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him. I don’t love him.

Kageyama bit his lip as he felt pains erupt in his chest. Like his lungs were being stabbed. “I-I’m going home early,” Kageyama mumbled. “Hm? What for?” Daichi asked. “Not feeling well,” Kageyama answered. Passing the blond and leaving before getting any more questions. He went to the clubroom to change back into his original clothing.

Leaving school grounds he kept continuing to cough horribly. Just thinking it was a simple cough he ignored it and went home. To his empty home. His parents were never home, his grandfather passed, and his sister was always working at her stupid salon.

He tossed his bag onto the couch and sunk to the tile next to the couch. Not knowing what to do.

What was I expecting..? He’d known Yamaguchi longer. He knows him better than the rest of us. He would never return stupid childish feelings.

Kageyama thought. His mind continuing to give him negative thoughts. Until he finally cleared his mind. The cough had finally subsided, and he just left it alone. The same four words he kept telling himself earlier still came into his mind.

I don’t love him. I don’t love him.

Who are you trying to fool? You love him to give him your life.

Kageyama tried to think what it fully meant. ‘give him your life?’ What does that mean? Once again Kageyama shook it off. Crawling to his room as he did not have enough energy to stand. He laid onto his bed and closed his eyes falling asleep quickly.