Chapter 1
He warned me ... i didn't listen now i'm paying. i'm paying with my life. i have it coming to me, i never listen and now i'm paying. karma hit me, hit me hard. its honestly funny everyone is crying because i'm going to die soon. they never cared when my mental health was low so why do they care now . its concerning really they way they are terrified but i'm not scared at all. i'm awfully calm right now. i want to laugh in their faces i want to see the sadness in their eyes, i want them to know they look silly. i hope they know they caused me to do this crap, i never wanted to , i should be the sad one not them but i guess vivi changed the emotions to them. i look through the crowd to atleast find someone happy but i fail. i look to my father ... nothing ... nothing but anger? sadness? i cant read his emotions which annoy me. show emotions god dammit. i look over to my mother, shes easier to read . she makes eye contact with me and cries even harder. serves her right. i look over at my little siblings... i dont see sadness i see confusion, of course they are confused. im pretty sure my father hasnt told them anything, which makes sense, he doesnt want to ruin his reputation with his precious younge children. i look at my grandma, i can see the anger and sadness behind her eyes even though her face doesnt show anything i can still see it and it finally reaks me . she was the only one who ever cared for me, the one who was there for me, break and sob because now im gonna leave her alone. im the only one who visits her in her part of the tower. father wont let the younger ones visit her. i shouldnt call him father so im just gonna call him by his name,along with my mother... Arein, and Vostia. my other siblings dont have a name yet, because we have this tradition where we dont get name till we turn 5,i got mine at six because no one would pick it for me so i picked Arden and everyone got mad because its a " boys" name. i wont be here to help pick out the name for them
