Chapter 1
Warnings: MINORS DO NOT INTERACT
This story may be triggering as there’s themes of
· Body Image Issues
· Angst
· Depression
· Food Disorders
· Abusive Relationships (Not with Kita, he’s the good guy in this)
· Forced Sexualisation/Objectification
This Y/n was actually an O/C, but I cannot think of a name. She is very skinny in this but it’s an important part of this storyline. I’ve decided to make this into a book and remove it from my smutshot book. It’s a slow burn and major character development. This Y/n kind of starts of as a bitch, so... but you’ll understand
Chapter 1:
Y/n sat pensively in the backseat of the taxi, watching her phone screen ring. Too hesistant to answer but she bit her lip, accepting the call
“Y/n, where the hell are you!?” Yelling came from the other end of the line. Y/n bit her lip, trying to contain her own frustration
“I’m going out of town for a while, Okasan. I need a break.”
“A break? You have three shoots coming up this week! And we have to sort out the mess you’ve gotten yourself into! The Director he keeps asking for you, what am I supposed to say to him? Tell me where you are, now.”
Y/n grit her teeth, her head was starting to hurt again
“No. Don’t even bother looking for me. I’ll come back when I want to”
Her mother just laughed,
“That’s rich, coming from you. You’re just a coward, who can’t handle a stupid scandal. If you just go live on your social media and explain that this was a misunderstanding, and apologise, everyone will forget about it”
The young woman clenched her jaw again, this time her lip trembled. She didn’t give a shit if it was her mother at the end of the other line. Apologise? Her mother was really living in the cloud, she was not going to apologise for something she didn’t do
“Fuck you”
With that she disconnected the call, turning her phone on Airplane mode...
Y/n stared out of the car window, looking at the scenery outside of the car. The rural areas were so different compared to the everyday urban landscapes that she was accustomed to. She looked at the long stretches of the paddy fields in her vision and the small rural farmhouses that passed by, before the car came to a slow halt
“We’ve arrived at the destination Miss...”
Y/n glanced outside the window, in confusion before she crossed her arms
“What do you mean? There’s nothing but fields out there!”
“I’m sorry Miss L/n, but this is as far as the cab can go” The driver said, and she raised a brow, sighing when he pointed to a path
“Your destination is down there but the path is too small for the car... You’ll have to trek it from here...” The older man sheepishly laughed before turning to her
“It’s a shame you’re wearing such fancy clothes... Vacationing out here seems very out of place for a woman like you...” He muttered and she pushed her sunglasses to rest on top of her head
“Excuse me?”
The cab driver felt a bit nervous, looking at the beautiful woman’s stern expression
“U-Um... Nothing, never mind ma’am... Anyways I apologise but I can’t go any further than here...”
Before she could argue, he got out of the cab and unloaded her suitcase from the trunk. With a sigh, she got out of the car, breathing in the fresh country air. Feeling the sun on her bare shoulders, she cringed at the sweat forming before she reached for the large sunhat, she had taken off earlier. The cab driver looked at her in amusement...
L/n Y/n, an upcoming model in Japan, was a sight for sore eyes. The driver was confused when she rushed into his cab, he assumed with the way she was dressed, they’d be heading to a photoshoot but instead when she gave him this address, he was taken aback... Asking her twice if she was sure this was where she wanted to go. The younger woman just nodded, mumbling to him to drive. She was awfully quiet for the long journey, but she had paid him well, so he was not going to argue
Y/n stretched her back, looking at her path
“Alright, so we’ll just go-”
She heard the car door shut and she turned around the moment he drove off, leaving her on the side of the road, with her mouth dropped open
“Seriously...? I fucking tipped you as well...”
With a frown and a heavy sigh, she looked at her luggage before nervously looking around. It was extremely quiet here, but it was a perfect place to hide. No one would suspect that she, out of all the people, would be staying here. Glancing at the map, it claimed the cottage she rented was a mere 15-minute walk... Clutching the handle of her suitcase, she took a deep breath
“Kita’s Cottage, here I come”
~
It was another normal day for Kita Shinsuke, the humble rice farmer wadded through the paddy fields tending to the newly grown agriculture with tender love and care. He enjoyed his quiet lifestyle, watching his business grow while he spent time with his elderly grandmother.
Small barks caught his attention, making Kita wander to the edge of the paddy where his sweet little dog waited for him, happily wagging her tail, tongue stick out. Her ears perked up when her master neared and she began jumping and yipping, making Kita chuckle
“What’s gotten you so excited Ton-Ton?” He asked the dog, who just barked, rolling on her back, begging for a belly rub which he complied, making Ton-Ton very happy.
“You’re pretty spoilt, aren’t you?” He said in amusement, watching her pant before he adjusted his farmer’s hat, getting out of the paddy.
“Let’s go, girl... Granny’s probably done makin’ lunch by now...” He muttered, walking down the path to his house. Ton-Ton excitedly sped back and forth from Kita and the paddy before her excited barking and jumping got the best of her and she sped down the path. Kita raised a brow, watching her run before he realised there was someone at the end of the path.
‘What’s with that get-up?’ He asked himself, looking at the large sunhat covering her face, but he was more so amused by the fancy dress she wore, matching with a patterned scarf wrapped around her neck to the high heels she wore
“Is she lost?” He muttered
The lady gasped when Ton-Ton made a bee line to her, suddenly jumping around her, trying to stand against her legs, making her shriek and move away
“B-Bad dog! Please go away!” She squealed, dropping her suitcase trying to move away from Ton-Ton.
(AN: Y’all don’t stress, Ton-Ton is a good girl... Irl I’m terrified of dogs, im more of a cat person but I so see, Kita having a cute ass dog)
Kita cursed, quickly making his way down the path but it was too late.
“Get off me! You beast!” She shrieked, making Ton-Ton whimper and Kita’s heartache.
Ton-Ton tried to jump on her legs once again, causing the woman to back away, not realising there was a slope behind her. He watched her shriek as she fell backwards, into the rice paddy below, her sun hat flying off, floating away, aimlessly.
“Ton-Ton!” He scolded making her whimper before he jumped into the paddy, apologising to the woman who was gasping at her state...
“M-My clothes!” She whined and he raised a brow, leaning down, stretching his hand to lift her out of the water but she slapped it away
“Don’t touch me!”
“I was just trying to help...”
Quickly sitting up from the paddy, she wadded her way angrily, to the edge.
“My crops...” He muttered and she huffed, lifting the end of her dress up, squeezing out the excess water
“I’m sorry for ruining your.... crops?... but this mutt attacked me!” She pointed at Ton-Ton who sat at the edge of the paddy, wagging her tail with her tongue sticking out in happiness. Kita looked at her amused before shaking his head
“Ton-Ton is just overly friendly; she’d never attack anyone... She’s just excited to see a new face... I’m really sorry your fancy dress got ruined...” He spoke. She had a frown on her face, crossing her arms over her chest
“You really should train her or put her on a leash or something...”
Kita just hummed, ignoring this rude woman, wiping his hands on his overalls before he looked at her luggage, laying on the dirt road
“Where are you going?” He asked and she gave him a suspicious look, she couldn’t see his face, obstructed by the conical hat he was wearing, feeling weary. She didn’t want this man to know where she was staying...
“Um... That’s none of your concern... Now if you’ll excuse me...” She huffed, awkwardly reaching down to grab her suitcase before she grabbed her handbag, opening it to gaze her her phone. Kita eyed the screen looking at the picture of the cottage before his brow raised
“Interesting...” He muttered and she looked at him, quickly shoving her phone in her purse
“It’s rude to look at someone else’s phone...” She glared and Kita just chuckled,
“My bad... Well, Goodluck, finding your destination Miss... See you soon” He said, walking ahead and she pouted, feeling gross from the paddy water and the clothes that now hung tight on her form. She looked around nervously, now lost again as his figure retracted. She closed her eyes, before she sighed again, giving up
“H-Hey! Wait!” She called out, coming towards and he stopped, turning to gaze at her.
“Yes?” He asked
Her cheeks were tinted pink and she avoided looking at his eyes
“Can you please help me?” She mumbled and Kita suddenly felt a little mean, he crossed his arms
“I will, if you apologise to Ton-Ton.”
Y/n’s jaw dropped, looking at him as if he was crazy but he tapped his foot, ushering to the small dog who obediently sat by his heels, wagging her tails
“You’re joking?”
He shook his head, crouching down to pat Ton-Ton’s head
“She has feelings, just like us... One should never be unkind to an animal... She didn’t do it intentionally and you called her a beast...” Kita said softly, and Y/n kept quiet,
‘She didn’t do it intentionally’
‘She didn’t do it...’ His voiced echoed in her head and Y/n swallowed the lump in her throat, looking at her feet, grimacing at how dirty her heels were
“...I’m sorry... Ton-Ton... You’re not a beast.” She muttered, and Ton-Ton just yipped,
Kita hummed, taking the suitcase from her, walking ahead
“C’mon then...”
Y/n followed him quietly, as he rolled the luggage down the road. Her feet were sore, and she was desperate for a bath, she no longer had energy to argue. All she wanted to do was freshen up and then shut herself out from the world.
After a few moments, her eyes widened when she spotted the cottage from the online photos. Rushing next to Kita,
“That’s the place! Kita’s Cottage! Oh my gosh, it’s lovely. I wonder where Yumie-san is, I read she’s the owner who’s been renting it out” She explained to Kita who quietly nodded, unlatching the gate for her, walking to the front door.
Y/n looked around curiously, expecting to see an older woman waiting for her but there was no one there. Instead, she turned to Kita, who had set her luggage down, looking around too. She didn’t want to be left alone with him, so she cleared her throat
“I can take it from here, thank you for your help” She said, bowing before she straightened up, clearing her throat.
“Here... for your kind services” She muttered, opening her bag, taking out money, trying to push it into his pocket but he chuckled, stepping back
“Don’t need it...” He said, before he turned to the mat behind him. In confusion, she watched him lift it, taking the copper key out from under. She felt her heartbeat race, when he unlocked the door
“H-How did you?” She began and she held her breath when he untied the hat over his head. Eyes widening at the two-toned hair accentuating his face and now that there was no shadow casted over him. Her gazed were locked onto his brown eyes.
He was absolutely gorgeous...
Kita smiled, outstretching his hand and she dumbly shook it
“You’re Kita Yumie...?” She asked and he laughed
“That’s my grandmother... She owns this cottage but she’s too old to tend to it. I’m the current housekeeper, Shinsuke and I’m guessing you’re the wonderful L/n Y/n, sis mentioned...” He said, outstretching his gloved hand. She shook it,
“That’s right...”
Kita hummed, pulling her luggage inside
“My sister’s a big fan...” He said and Y/n flushed, before she grabbed his arm
“Please tell her not to disclose my whereabouts” She said, and he raised a brow at her, she let him go
“Um... I’m here for privacy...”
Kita wasn’t stupid, his younger sister managed the page where they rented granny’s cottage out and the way she screeched in excitement when Y/n applied, she scared everyone in the house when they thought the worst had come
“I CAN’T BELIEVE IT, Y/N! Y/N’S RENTED OUR COTTAGE OUT! OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD!” She screeched, making Ton-Ton yip loudly as everyone covered their ears
“Calm down... What’s the big deal?” His brother asked and she just jumped around excitedly
“You don’t understand, I am obsessed with her! She debuted straight out of highschool, a few years ago. She’s so hilarious, her interviews always make me laugh!”
“I wonder why she’s chosen to stay here, out of all the places in the world? I mean we usually get those writers or artists...but a celebrity?” Yumie-san asked, and Kita’s sister just pouted,
“It’s probably because of the scandal that’s come out...”
Kita looked at the photo of the beautiful woman, his sister was showing their family... She seemed like a happy woman, but her eyes said otherwise...
“Scandal?” He asked
She nodded,
“Saw it online a few days ago. Maybe that’s why she’s staying here alone? Probably for privacy...” She muttered. Yumie nodded, humming
“And its best you don’t tell your friends at school. For L/n’s sake and ours, her residency should be kept private. I don’t want nosy journalists or paparazzi ruining the atmosphere here... This cottage is meant for one to come and get away from it all, not have it follow...” She explained to the teenage girl, who nodded
“I understand, I can brag about it, after she leaves... It sucks because I have to go back to the city... School starts next week...” She mumbled in disappointment before turning to Kita
“At least get a signed autograph... a photo or something!”
Kita shook out of his thoughts, turning to Y/n
“Your stay is strictly confidential... I promise.”
She nodded, letting out a breath of relief
“Thank you...”
He eyed her damp clothes, before clearing his throat
“Bathroom’s this way”
He showed her around the cosy cottage before stopping at the bathroom
“I’ve installed an automatic heater, so you shouldn’t have any issues. We live in the house, next door, so if you need anything. Just drop by. I’ve also stocked the fridge for you, fresh produce and all, if you want to cook for yourself but granny cooks every day, so you’re welcome to share a meal with us.” He said looking at her, but she shook her head
“That’s very polite of you Kita-san but I’ll manage from here...”
Kita nodded, before he turned bidding her farewell. She watched him leave before she let out a breath, she didn’t know she was holding in. As much as she wanted to explore, her damp clothes were getting to her now. She stripped from the disgusting material, walking into the bathroom.
“It’s so old fashioned...” She muttered, she was used to modern bathrooms, so seeing the round wooden tub in the middle, intrigued her. She bent down to fill it, before standing up
“Fuck... I forgot my clothes” She groaned, before looking around to find a folded towel. Wrapping it on her body, she rushed downstairs, fumbling to unlock it and dig out some pyjamas.
While she rummaged through her suitcase,
“Oh L/n-san-”
Kita walked through her front door and she gasped, making him freeze, when she stood up in shock
“Why are you still here!? I thought you left!”
His cheeks flushed, covering his eyes, stammering in a panic (something he has never done)
“A-Apologies! Shit... I... um... but I... forgot to give you the.. k-keys!”
She just calmed down; it didn’t really phase her that he’s seen her in a towel... She was a model after all, she was used to her body being ogled at during her shoots. Something she sadly became used to as the years went by. It was just amusing to see his get so shy, she had never experienced a reaction like this. It was pretty cute
“Oh... Thank you Kita-san!” Y/n happily gushed, trying to come to him but he backed away, his back hitting the door.
Kita was majorly flustered, at how calm she was, given the situation... He was unsure of what to do.
“Goodbye.”
With his back turned, he dropped the keys onto the desk, rushing outside.
“Ha, he’s so innocent” She said in disbelief
Y/n just shrugged at his reaction before turning to look at her luggage, until her eyes widened, and she realised her towel was around her ankles
“Oh my god...”
Kita for the first time in his life was at a loss of words or thoughts as he walked down the path... She was definitely an attractive woman, but that’s not what left him speechless. He couldn’t get the imagine of her body of his mind... It didn’t seem healthy... He could practically see her rib cage... For her height and age, he felt like she was malnourished
That evening, he found himself continually reminiscing about her, before he found himself scrolling on his phone, finally typing her name, only to be met with a multitude of news reports....
~
Y/n sat huddled on the cosy couch in the lounge, hugging her knees her while she watched the steam rise from her green tea. She gaze wandered to the black SD card sitting next to the mug, haunting her... Something she couldn’t dare to lose at this moment... Now that she was alone, for the first time in years... It scared her. She never had time to ponder over her thoughts so freely but somehow, it didn’t help. Closing her eyes, she was immediately hit with a memory
“Okay Y/n, you need to stick your chest out more!” The photographer barked and she cringed inwardly at this photoshoot. It was a fucking perfume advertisement. Why did she have to be clad in such tight lingerie, while clutching the bottle...?
Why did her mother make her do such shoots?
She took a deep breath, ignoring the burrowing eyes of the staff members around. Their eyes dug deep into her soul, making her feel sick... But she was distracted the moment, her mother walked in with the director, and a young man.
She felt uneasy when they stood by the edge of the shoot, whispering amongst themselves, staring at her.
" Y/n... This pose isn’t working at all. Trying leaning back, and spread your legs apart. Maybe hold the perfume bottle between them. Y’know, like you’re teasing the audience!” The obnoxious photographer barked, and she stilled, feeling irritation arise
“I thought we were doing a classy photoshoot! This feels like a porno to me” She argued and before the photographer could open his mouth, her mother barked her name, making her freeze. The older woman just laughed awkwardly, excusing her from the men, strutting towards her
“Come with me.”
Y/n swallowed the lump in her throat, while everyone whispered amongst themselves. She felt vulgar, not even given a robe as her mother forced her to walk past the director and young man, to her dressing room. She could feel everyone’s eyes on her bare backside, making her feel sick
The moment the door of the dressing room shut, her mother glared at her crossing her arms
“Insolent brat, do you know how hard it was for me to book you a shoot for this brand!? You had to embarrass us in front of the director and his son!”
Y/n bit her lip before she glared at the older woman
“I refuse to do vulgar poses. It’s disgusting and it sends the wrong messages out there, not only about me but to younger kids that look up to me!”
Her mother rolled her eyes,
“Sex sells, darling... Besides, you won’t be complaining when that pay-check comes...”
“...what pay-check? You take 50%...” She mumbled, but a harsh stung to her cheek, made her eyes widen in a flash as she cupped her cheek, looking at her mother who grabbed her jaw tightly
“Try acting smart with me again and I’ll make sure you do a hundred more risqué photoshoots like this... Now fucking straighten yourself out before you go back out there. I swear to god, if you embarrass us again... I’ll make you regret it.”
Her mother was always overbearing, unkind and ruthless. She controlled every aspect of Y/n’s life when she was born. From her clothes, friends and boyfriends. As a young child, she was oblivious to the brainwashing but the moment she slapped Y/n. The young woman realised that she was nothing but a mere puppet.
Y/n refused to let her eyes gloss over, but in this moment she felt weak. Her mother stroked her face gently, eyes softening
“I’m sorry sweetie, I don’t like fighting with you but sometimes mothers have to put disobedient kids in place. I’m doing this for your future, so now let’s get back out there and finish the shoot. Then we can go home, okay?”
Y/n nodded, making her mother smile, praising her before she ushered her back outside, calling the makeup artist for a touch up. Y/n let her mind glaze over, she blocked out the lewd perverted gazes thrown on her body, everything was a mere blur. As she sat in front of the camera, her eyes wandered over the people staring at her intensely. She eyes look towards the director’s son, who was giving her a gentle smile, but his eyes said otherwise. She focused on a sign hanging above the door, behind his head. The bold world, EXIT, highlighted by green light.
As the photographer barked out his previous instructions, she leaned back, spreading her thighs wide apart as the camera shuttered on repeat. She blocked out everything, just looking at the four lettered lightbox,
Letting her mind exit her body...
Y/n’s eyes opened, and she felt nauseous, she remembered when they released the advert. The vulgar comments, male fans left on her social media... The things they said about her made her feel so dirty.
“I always knew she was such a slut!”
“There’s no way her boobs are real.”
“She’d make such a good porn actress. I jerked off so hard to this picture, imagine her in AVs. I’d die a happy death...”
Getting up, she felt dizzy but the gurgling in her stomach made her dash towards the kitchen sink, where she puked. She hadn’t eaten in a long time and it was awful because she was pushing nothing out of her system, but she slid down to the floor, hiding her face as she hugged her knees, sobbing
“I wish they all would just fucking die”
