Running from reality

Magnus said that he was falling in love with Alec, and this is how Alec and Magnus’s love story began. Then, it only took one mistake and nothing else Alec ever did matter. After Magnus had found out that Alec had met with Camille in secret, Magnus decided to break up with Alec.

There was an awkward atmosphere in Magnus’s apartment the air felt full of angst.

“I never wanted to take away your immortality. Magnus, Camille was lying; and you know it!” Alec urgently exclaimed.

“I knew Camille lied, but there’s some truth to it that you can’t deny. Alexander, you met with my ex-girlfriend without telling me. You hid what you were doing from me, why?” Magnus asked.

“I just wanted to know more about you.” Alec’s head bowed down, so he didn’t meet Magnus’s eyes.

“Whatever you wanted to know, you could have asked me directly!” Magnus looked angry and couldn’t accept an answer like that. It seemed to him that Alec was just giving him some random lame excuses.

“I did ask, but you never bothered to tell me about your past!” Alec retorted with teary eyes he stared at Magnus.

“Then, you should understand, that there must have been a valid reason a strong reason why I didn’t tell you.” Magnus sighed and avoided eye contact with Alec. “Why couldn’t you just get over it and accept me fully without asking too much? We should have focused on our future, instead of my past.”

Alec’s tears fell silently over his cheeks.

“I just wanted to know the whole you, I barely know anything about you; was I asking too much?”

Magnus didn’t reply he remained silent just staring at Alec.

“So...What...What now? Are you... I mean do you wish to break up with me?”

“I hope you have a better life, without me,” Magnus said with a sigh.

Alec gave a small sad smile “So this is it? This is how our love story ends?

“I’m sorry that I’m not sorry,” Magnus said and then he finally broke up with Alec. “This is not your fault, nor is it mine. Maybe, we’re just not suited for each other.” Magnus snapped his fingers and his front door opened.

“Can we meet again?” Alec asked, his tone of voice soft and broken.

“Sure,” Magnus said with a shrug. “But I hope you know that I won’t change my mind.”

“Yeah.” Alec clenched his shaking fists.

“Please don’t show up for a while if possible. As you know I’m hurting too.” Magnus requested with a calm voice.

Alec’s lips twitched into a small wry smile before falling off.

“I’m sorry for everything that I have done to you. I hope you can forgive me…”

“Don’t apologize, it’s like I said this isn’t your fault,” Magnus replied.

“No it is all my fault, if I never went to see Camille then maybe we wouldn’t have broken up,” Alec stated.

Magnus licked his dry lips silently, he looked exhausted.

“Alec, can we stop repeating this over and over again? I am really tired.”

“I love you.”

“I love you too.”

“You said you love me, but you still want to break up with me?”

After a short moment of silence, Magnus answered firmly. “Yes, because I have got no other choice. Whenever I see your face, I will remember everything you did to me, you... You betrayed me, Alexander.”

“I didn’t betray you! Camille was lying and I already tried explaining it to you clearly as I possibly could!” Alec angrily shouted in frustration.

Magnus froze for a moment startled, he had never seen Alec lose control like that, Alec always presented himself as a calm and collected person.

Gazing into Magnus’s wide and shocked eyes, Alec smiled sadly and tiredly before sighing and saying in a defeated tone “Fine. Whatever... You win, Magnus.”

It seemed everything around Alec was getting so cold and dark.

The moment they had broken up, Alec’s world had faded away and shattered apart.

Alec nodded his head, then began to walk slowly towards the door, ready to leave. Magnus felt hurt and angst in his heart turning his back to Alec, trying to avoid Alec’s gaze, Magnus felt afraid that Alec might open his mouth and continue arguing with him. However, despite Magnus’s expectations, Alec left quietly without saying anything else. Alec seemed to accept Magnus’s Decision to break up.

Once Alec stepped out of Magnus’s loft, he walked slowly over to the staircase and sat there, weeping heartbroken and alone, he felt guilt eating away at him, he also felt judged, without meaning to shut down emotionally.

By the Angels, he needed a break, why was his life becoming a living hell?

[To be continued]