STILL🦋
No matter how high we go in life, no matter where we reach, no matter who we meet ,,, there are some memories that can never be erased from our hearts .... Pleasant memories that seem playful to many, but always hurt our hearts ....!🥀
The love of a high school student may be funny to many ...... because most people today think that
'this is just a pastime in school life'.
I too thought so when he first came and confessed his love. I could not easily reject him since he was my best friend then. Instead, I put it in a single word, 'I will think'. Again the friendship carried itself forward.
I could not give him an answer for a month.
His presence made me happy , and a bad stretch inside in his absence. His every joy doubked over to me. His grief hurt my heart as well. Once I asked myself , 'could this be love ? '
In the end, my mind told me that it was love. And with the encouragement of friends, I too said, 'I love uh ❤️' .
Many of you may think that , it will be the days of love and romance later ..... But to me everything was the same as before.
Neither he nor I have grown up walking hand in hand or engaging in romantic conversation on the verandas. Even when talking to me , he had found himself at a certain distance and control.
What I liked most about him was his character and mannerisms. But the reality is that , I could feel his love for me in his every word and look .....💞
Though years passed , our love was growing with lifeless quarrels even not upto the point of bubbling in between. Many have asked me, 'we have'nt seen you both ever standing together or even walking together... why is it so ?' All we could do was , just smile at them,,, because we did not know the answer. But we wanted to go on like that .......!!
Even after three years, our love affair continued to deepen. In short, our love has never affected our learning, as most parents worry.
Probably the one who supported me the most to study was him .....
After completing schooling ,we decided to go to the same college since it was really hard to get seperated ....!
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Today it's been two years since he looked at me like he used to, without being angry or insulting ..!!!!
I can not explain the reason behind it .... because there is only one reason why he rejected me was ......MISUNDERSTANDING
For six months, his separation didn't allow me to talk , relax or even smile at anyone....💔
It is half true to say that ' time erases all wounds '......
Time has turned that wound in my heart into a fond memory .....
Today as he walk in front of me talking to his girlfriend , still I see in his eyes , the same look that was full of mischief falling on me in the past.
But I cannot see or love him as much as I used to ..... I can not hate too...
If my mind still lingers in his memories, was love only for me? There are so many unanswered questions in my mind .....
Love is like this .... isn't it?
I can not see my love, no, lost love as a normal occurrence in school life.
I will always be that old eighth grader in some corner of my heart ...... Let those dusty memories melt in the dust with me at the end of my life ......!
What I thought as "my own" in life , is no longer with me today. But there is no anger or hatred towards him ....
Do I still love him ? I just do not know !!! 😊
