Chapter 1: Alone
Pale lips, bags under my eyes, alone after midnight. And am too num to cry.
I have No friends, well at least I can pretend that everyone loves me, except that's a lie. What will happenes when I die? Will people take their time shading their tears? Or maybe I waisted all my years. What happens if I stay, no promises I'll be okay, coz life can get hard sometimes
Hi my name is florence Kaitlyn Grey,
I'm 17 years old and a senior at Chirundu Revanswood Academy.
I leave with my mom and her boyfriends, yeah it's a different one every week. Mom wasn't always like this though, we were a happy family. But when my dad died everything changed, I remember it like it was yesterday. I was 16 at the time i got home from school that day really happy because i had won a medal in art class, but it all changed. I got a call from mom.
Flash back
" Flora...kaitlyn Hun.... hunny it's your dad..... he's..... he's gone sweetie he's dead"
After that everything changed, not only did I lose my dad but my mom also. She's not home anymore, it's either she's at work, drinking or on another date with some guy. And when she's actually home I have to deal with being abused mentally and emotionally, sometimes even physically. When she looks at me she'd tell me what a disappointment I am and how much she hates me because I look like my father.
After I turned 17, I was so used to the abuse that, I would cover my face by wearing a hoody, so that she could not see my face. Or just stay in my room when she's home. A million words won't bring my father back, I know because I tried and a million tears won't bring him back either. I know because I cried, sometimes I just feel like ending it all, and just joining my father. Blyno once told me that people can stay in your heart, but not in your life.
There is emptiness where my heart used to be. Pain, sadness and anger, these three things make up the person I call me. There is a cloud over my head and a faceless demon lurking around my bed. My smile is fading and the weight of disappointment and failure is draining my soul. I feel like I'm saffocatting and the bitter taste of rejection after rejection is taking it's toll. All I want is to be happy, but I find myself feeling crappy.
Am depressed, I wake up every morning and wish I didn't. I just feel so "Alone"
