Chapter 1
While i sit here and cry my eyes while reading this letter , all the pain and hurt came back and all the happy memories i once had are just gone now everything gone and replace with nothing but anger and sadness and little bit of blame.
Blame ? Yes blame i blame my self for everything that happened to me , i blame my self allowing her to hurt me this much , i blame my self for the tears I’m shedding right now , i blame my self for letting myself love her when she doesn’t deserve it, i just blame myself for letting her cause this much pain in my life, i blame my self for thinking she would ever be the mother i needed and wanted
but in a reality she just became the women i once knew when i was child she wasn’t there she was too busy with drugs and getting locked up my mother wasn’t anything to me beside a stranger every visit and every phone call and every letter was always the same either she was asking me to help with her books or she was telling me how much she hated me and wish she aborted me nothing fails with this women
When my mother was on drugs to a point she got locked up my aunt adopted me and took me in and treated me like i was her own i was happy i felt loved or what i thought was loved i never had to ask for anything i always got what i wanted she always took me out with her to do whatever i use to love being there as a kid
But i turned 16 that’s when she thought it was time i learned what the real world was like so she kicked me out and told me to figure it out and i never heard from her again i end up living with a girl i thought was my friends for a while
Krystal was my best friend all through high school we did everything together she was like a sister i didn’t have but wanted she always had my back when bitches would try to start with me till one day this guy from our school went around telling everyone how i fucked him and give him STD and i didn’t he was upset that i turned him down and of course like a childish ass kids including her child face ass they believed him and made my life a living hell i had to fight everyday it got to a point that i dropped out and went to an alternative school finished high school like that
Krystal kicked me out and burned all my stuff and that was the day i went to jail i didn’t give a fuck about nothing everything that happened to me in my life made me fed up with everyone and their bs i was so tired and just ready to give up i had so much anger in me i let it out on her
its like the two people i thought loved and cared about me throw me away like a piece of trash and they didn’t care if i didn’t have anywhere to go or nothing that’s when i had to grow up and realize that even your own blood and friends can turn on you like your nothing so i learned to just stay to myself and keep my circle small....
Sorry for the mistakesWhile i sit here and cry my eyes while reading this letter , all the pain and hurt came back and all the happy memories i once had are just gone now everything gone and replace with nothing but anger and sadness and little bit of blame.
Blame ? Yes blame i blame my self for everything that happened to me , i blame my self allowing her to hurt me this much , i blame my self for the tears I’m shedding right now , i blame my self for letting myself love her when she doesn’t deserve it, i just blame myself for letting her cause this much pain in my life, i blame my self for thinking she would ever be the mother i needed and wanted
but in a reality she just became the women i once knew when i was child she wasn’t there she was too busy with drugs and getting locked up my mother wasn’t anything to me beside a stranger every visit and every phone call and every letter was always the same either she was asking me to help with her books or she was telling me how much she hated me and wish she aborted me nothing fails with this women
When my mother was on drugs to a point she got locked up my aunt adopted me and took me in and treated me like i was her own i was happy i felt loved or what i thought was loved i never had to ask for anything i always got what i wanted she always took me out with her to do whatever i use to love being there as a kid
But i turned 16 that’s when she thought it was time i learned what the real world was like so she kicked me out and told me to figure it out and i never heard from her again i end up living with a girl i thought was my friends for a while
Krystal was my best friend all through high school we did everything together she was like a sister i didn’t have but wanted she always had my back when bitches would try to start with me till one day this guy from our school went around telling everyone how i fucked him and give him STD and i didn’t he was upset that i turned him down and of course like a childish ass kids including her child face ass they believed him and made my life a living hell i had to fight everyday it got to a point that i dropped out and went to an alternative school finished high school like that
Krystal kicked me out and burned all my stuff and that was the day i went to jail i didn’t give a fuck about nothing everything that happened to me in my life made me fed up with everyone and their bs i was so tired and just ready to give up i had so much anger in me i let it out on her
its like the two people i thought loved and cared about me throw me away like a piece of trash and they didn’t care if i didn’t have anywhere to go or nothing that’s when i had to grow up and realize that even your own blood and friends can turn on you like your nothing so i learned to just stay to myself and keep my circle small....
Sorry for the mistakes
