The beginning
I’m running fast! I don’t look back, I don’t stop, I just keep going I have always ran but normally it’s a choose, normally I didn’t feel anything and would just leave but this time is different I’m not running to anywhere, I have no where to go this time I’m running away from someone no something and for the first time in my life I’m scared…
Lets head back to the beginning I’m shadow mist a child who has always spent time going between care home since as far as i can remember. My parent died fighting for me but maybe they should of just left it i mean I’m just one child out of hundreds in the world i never felt any feelings, I have no emotions which i guess is good for a orphan. But thats what i don’t get i always run from the homes I’m put in i disappear for day,week even mouths on end like i was never at that place before i finally turn up stay quiet hide what i have done well away.
You see i learned the hard way how to survive always being the loner the weirdo the freak that no one wants around. So i hunt and not with a knife or a bow or even a gun i hunt with my bear hand with my sharp teeth and claws nothing stands a chance when I’m in wolf form... So at the police station when they ask how i have been living being a “innocent” child i put a scared look on and say i stool some when people weren’t looking in that cute childish voice that can win any adult over. But deep down i feel nothing i know that its all an act, a show that no one will ever see back stage to. I’m the innocent child with the beast inside her.
The school years starting up soon and I don’t want to go not because of bully or because I’m alone its because its like a cage a prison and being an orphan makes it worse. The teachers are always keeping an eye on me and asking if I’m ok. Like they care! You can tell they are just trying to be nice so they look nice. That’s what I never got about emotions, about people caring for other you can tell that they all act and ha… the funny thing is everyone buys each others acts because they are blinded by the things they feel when they should be listening to what there thinking. In school I keep my hood up head down and lips shut no one knows me but I know way more then other think I know about them.
I know there secrets, how they truly feel, how they do in class, what there fears and dreams are. What? Oh I know you think I’m weird because of what I know well… I know that you have “friends” you just hang around with to keep them company and to be “nice” I know that you have flaws you hide or little secrets that you never want getting out I know you hide behind a mask you made to hide who you are because you to scared to show yourself to the world and that’s because of the emotions you have. But when you’re like me with no emotions you have to analyses everyone learn to blend in how to be normal and play your part.
well this is the beginning of my emotionless life its a bumpy road and with school things are hard to hide...
