ArographoDelusions

My life is longer the same as it used to have been I no longer have any close contact to my family or friends anymore and I kept running away out of fear ever since I noticed the unsualness when will it ever end?

“Is everything that I experienced real at all?” “How do I know if it’s fake aswell?”

Everything seems fake and orchestrated by some being that I can not see or touch.

I had no evidence to prove this intuition but I know it’s real I they are there... Watching.

“I’m scared I dont want to go outside” I said in paraniod tone.

I sat in a corner inside my room in a white night gown and a white sheet of blanket covering me from head to toe I have no intention of ever leaving my house no matter how much my friends tried to reach me but I’m scared that they might get taken away like they did to my family. They always told me that my family was on a “business trip” I never heard from them since I know It’s all a lie created by whoever’s watching too.

A family that I had a family that I cherished and loved I’ll never get to ever see them again.

Feeling paranoid Adelaine opened her phone only to be bombarded with hundreds of text messages, missed calls and voice calls her mind was in disarray and without a second to spare she discarded them all to read “The 13 rings” a web visual novel with a tragic ending that you’ve read several times it helped you cope through many hardships that you have faced but its no longer helping with the fear that I have suffered from I can’t stop thinking about it.

But I am tired of reading I used to love it but now it’s lacking the thing I used to love it for it’s now boring to read all I do now is having an irregular day to day schedule and sleep deprivation.

I have nothing else to do other than cleaning but I can’t seem to bring myself to clean even with all this trash my house feels empty.

“Should I clean up and add some more furniture other than the minimal funitures that I already have?”

“Maybe some other time”

My anxieties is getting worse that I can’t even have a proper conversation with someone other than my friends I have to rely on my phone to make orders I can’t bother to communicate for those things evertime I think about communication with people I remember that one embarrassing memory it happened at a convenient store down town.

I remember pissing off a cashier and holding up the line because of my problem with communication he got so pissed that he had an out burst this triggers my anxiety attack I’m still ashamed of myself for not communicating any better.

All I ever did is becoming a nuisance to other people maybe I should do better sometime again tomorrow.

Life is not all sunshines and rainbows It’s not like my problems will ever change over night just by sitting here. My eyes gotten heavier the more I tried not to fall asleep why am I so scared to fall asleep.