Chapter 1
And again I’m on this stage.
The smiles of the audience, the footlights, a flurry of applause, fake happiness.
Everything is as always, with only one caveat-you are not there.
You’re not there - it’s like my sun has been turned off.
You are not there-and all the days are monotonous, gray.
You are not there-my heart is beating monotonously,
Tapping out Morse code:
You. Are. Not.There!
***
He walks again the deserted street alone,
Darkness covered the city.
Now he’s not going home,
After all, the house is empty.
No one is waiting for him,
There is no one whose light illuminated both the house and the soul.
And here he is alone as always
Walking down a deserted street,
Darkness covered the city,
There is only pain and emptiness in soul...
***
“Live as you used to live.” she told me,
“Live as you used to live, as it was before me.”
She said and left, disappeared in the dark,
There was emptiness and pain in the soul.
“Go back to the way you used to live.”
Well, I’ll come back and live
Like before, without love.
I only fell in love once,
I can’t find another one anymore.
But you’re gone, my tempting demon,
She left and burned bridges behind her,
So that there is no way back.
Well, I’m going back to my dull life,
Work, home and nothing else.
But the day will come and we will be together again.
One day you’ll come for me,
Let us unite in eternity in the halls of hell
And then I’ll be alive.
