The Depression Hit Once Again...

On December 3rd 2021 we got together.

On May 5th 2022 we hung out at our park...I got kicked out the same day...

On May 7th 2022 you took me into your home.You also took my virginity as I did yours...We danced in the rain and did each other's makeup,watched scary movies and ate a lot of food, we swam and had deep conversations while babysitting, we went to the mall and our love grew.

On May 11th you took me to the airport with your mother so I could meet my grandmother I never met and move to Minnesota.You told me we would make it work and we would get married and have kids and have a house...

On May 21st my big brother died back in Texas and we cried on the phone together.I also found out I was pregnant the same day...

On June 18th we celebrated your first Fathers Day.

On June 21st I had a miscarriage... We fought more and more because of each other's families.

On July 11th 2022 we got married over the phone.

All of August you started texting me less and less telling me stupid things like we wouldn't last and we should break up.You also started school.

September 10th friends, ex friends, best friends from Texas all started texting me saying if we were still together because they seen you with another girl.I said yes and asked you about it...You denied it...

September 17th my friend sent me 4 pictures of you and a girl in 3 y'all were holding hands...You were cheating on me.

September 18th I broke up with you....

Everyday after that we would call...Then fight and block each other then call weeks later then repeat the process...Soon after weeks turned into months and you started saying you never loved me,I was a mistake,you hated me,I was passed around,I was trashy...

It has been 8 months and I still remember everything about you...you saved me from suicide 3 times...you listened to me when I told you how I got sexually assaulted...You called the cops when I was abused... I still love you...I still sleep with your jacket and look at our pictures...Listen to our songs and try and call you...I remember you so well and I miss you...You are still with her though...Tell me...Do you ever miss me?I still miss you...I still dream of you...I still want you...I still need you...I will forever and always be your little monkey and you my guppy fish...

You made me believe in love...You were my 1st love...Thank you...