Chapter 1
This is what years of abuse have done for me. These are what hate-filled minds did.
When someone hurts harms and takes what you have what does it matter when they are surprised that you can retaliate because they have in their childhood been protected by the consequence of their actions on others?
Because we are not going to win because no one wins in this situation we as adults must now put our sticks and clanging chains and make off with the real world.
After a while, the going again starts and we ram it into the bigger fights because the woman is shackled to her own ideals. She does not see that I am too a woman and without the means to earn my livelihood I can become her biggest nightmare.
Come is this all about Eve?
Is it about a catfight?
No this is a fight between the poor and the rich and the rich want more.
"They more they have the more they want."
"For work too?"
"I am not setting a good example but do not I work?"
"Yes."
"Why does she earn the money and I earn nothing?"
"Unsalable."
"Useful toffs have the toffee nose at me."
"Come does it matter if I shackle with someone else and come over this whorish wolfish mouth?"
"Yes, it does."
"Why is everyone trying my patience? Do I look like your mother?"
"Mother's love is free."
"Look, idiots. All this rest and respite has to be paid for. My house is a ramshackle obstacle to health."
"You are a rum one."
"Never mind."
Why is it like you say? What did you speak and spark another row inside my head? Why do you speak when there is not much purpose in your moaning and groaning about things that now do not matter?
Winter bills and then summer time bills and then what is there most of life but disappointment and nagging sense one made a mistake? Look it is no use being like that. No of course not we are the bearers of good wit. We are so witty as we hide behind masks and then mellow with the evening's glow.
I am the representation of the poor.
On the food bank?
No, my family would kill me.
They are proud that I am their straw and have to do the things to make them look proud.
"I would not say that."
I shatter to think about what society now feels and thinks about the whole social services. To become this meaningless critic about the whole stuffy nonsense is a codswallop. We opened our door to you England had and what do you do?
Snide remarks and stuff and then we were involved in genocide in Cyprus the land that saw experimentation. What experimentation? I do not know they were dark before one knew it they became taller and less dark with blue eyes. You speak entire lies.
"What a process?"
"They eliminated us."
People who deserted Cyprus remained black-eyed and people who stayed in Cyprus became blue or green-eyed slender and taller.
"Intermarriage?"
"Who knows."
We did not do such a thing.
"We are honest decent hard working people it is you who do no work in there at all."
I believe in fairyland and fairy tales.
Our land is the land of Shakespeare of social status and what do you say we are? Dickens like Charles Dickens? Wash your mouth.
Why in Lord's name do you speak? Don't you know about Oscar Wild and the Importance of Being Earnest and behaving like a gentleman?
Don't you see we are an important country?
In fact, we have the English language pure and our purity is in our language. That is not odd it is proper.
The ladies walk in their veiled and their behavior is discretion and dishonesty and that is allowed because no policeman would arrest them.
We are throwing stones in the air and no one will notice. We behave like we did at school but we find ourselves the goods. We are the wives and the woman who does and do. We work and rest and are now nans to the state.
That is why it is a nanny state.
Sure it is not looking since the pandemic the money is much tighter and we have spent hours injecting people so we want them now to work harder.
"We have the manifold things we so admire the behavior of a ruffian is not one of them."
"As we are the ladda da."
"We get by. We do get by and we do not like you to talk about us in that way."
The fashion is settled we are making no headway toward making the state into the right state. We are marking time before we retire to the country.
In order to drink the water.
In the morning we drank like the tonic and in the afternoon we were into chilling.
"How dare you say that?"
"We dislike you because we mock us."
In these times we are sorry to say we do not admit Oscar Wilde. In his time he did say a lot.
"What about all the others?"
"We are what?"
"We are destroyed because the system is working for the rich."
"We did give up time for the charities and we run the land with a fist of flowers."
"We liked it back when there was no direct comment."
"Look there is nothing for the poor."
"We give them rides and cure them from being sick."
"We give them food free for the likes who do not pay gas and electricity."
"We have built such a good feel thing that we now bake and make them all."
"Sure."
"Do you give them a home?"
"Of course, they have the mold for company."
"Yes, and asbestos is so far unlucky."
But if we do grow tired then they have the fires to make them swamped.
"It is not a joke the MPs are speaking with concern."
"We are swamped with here and there no taking it in your tread."
"I am very sorry that I depend on you a lot reading the stories in something like intelligence."
"We do have all the intelligence."
"This story is not made for masturbation and late-night reading."
"We dislike that are you saying we do not care?"
"I did not mean that." I was looking away. I could not see my face. I had disappeared and gone somewhere else. I became a liar.
"Most people do care this country is the most caring we are careworn giving to the poor."
Yes, I see.
"If we did not make the houses good was it the fault of this generation?"
"Most of the poor had their children when they thought they could get a home."
"What?"
"Yes in the 80's very popular notion."
"Now they are trapped in their homes with their kids and the growing building works. Lifts that never work and the rising damp and the mold."
Now that is not Cyprus?"
"No, it is England.!"
One cannot have everything.
"Well stop grumbling then."
